SoLiLoQuy

Wednesday, May 21, 2008

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If You're Not The One (Daniel Bedingfield)

If you’re not the one then why does my soul feel glad today?
If you’re not the one then why does my hand fit yours this way?
If you are not mine then why does your heart return my call
If you are not mine would I have the strength to stand at all

I never know what the future brings
But I know you are here with me now
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it,
I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am?
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

If I don’t need you then why am I crying on my bed?
If I don’t need you then why does your name resound in my head?
If you’re not for me then why does this distance maim my life?
If you’re not for me then why do I dream of you as my wife?

I don’t know why you’re so far away
But I know that this much is true
We’ll make it through
And I hope you are the one I share my life with
And I wish that you could be the one I die with
And I pray in you’re the one I build my home with
I hope I love you all my life

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it,
I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I can stay in your arms?

‘Cause I miss you, body and soul so strong that it takes my breath away
And I breathe you into my heart and pray for the strength to stand today
‘Cause I love you, whether it’s wrong or right
And though I can’t be with you tonight
And know my heart is by your side

I don’t want to run away but I can’t take it,
I don’t understand
If I’m not made for you then why does my heart tell me that I am
Is there any way that I could stay in your arms?

wishing upon a star at...|4:55 PM|

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Friday, May 16, 2008

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i now trust by faith, not by sight
i place my trust in u
u are my answer
i know u listen to my prayers
and will bring them safely back to me

been busy busy this week
been out lots!
and shoppin here n there frm time to time
spending too much!!
but i finally bought my denim skirt
and a green top! abit of suez style though i wld tink
hahas
retail therapy realllies is good
makes me excited to wear new clothes!
:)

time to start earning!
though work is gonna be challenging fer me
and isnt high paying
but at least i'm earning my keep
occupying my time to keep myself frm imagining things
to keep myself distracted enough
am pretty excited to start work
but yet abit apprehensive
haven been working with youths fer a long time!
hmmmm
but the formal attire n endless things to rmb puts me off
hahs
but at least i know suez n joyce are in this tog with me
but then agn
we most prob wun be on the same assignment

astro is horrible!
love the videos
but someone help me to stop falling asleep in lectures
i feel as if i am there to picnic
i just practically eat thru out the lesson
ahahas
must start studyin le!
gonna have quiz real soon!

//
no more expectations
no more wishful thinking
it's just me alone in my soliloquy
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wishing upon a star at...|8:42 PM|

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Wednesday, May 14, 2008

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today nth seems to cheer me up
sighz
i tink it may be good to lose my voice fer nw cox sometimes i dun feel like talking
so i can use it as an excuse to hide my emotions
i am scared
reallies
scared tt i may lose my parents
this is the first time they went overseas without me
i am tired of coughing
it always make me feel so weak
and exhausted
like as if i am squeezing all the air out of my body

wishing upon a star at...|1:59 AM|

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Sunday, May 04, 2008

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today is my first attempt at trying to cook since dunno when
or rather i watched daddy cook spagetti
and i tried my hand in helpin to stir the noodles and picked up some tips at frying and so on
hahas
maybe soon soon i'll be able to cook!
at least some decent stuff ba

wanting to find a job badly
but cox of special sem
it is so hard!
sighz

been much a home body these few days

thinking of....
dunwan to think. full stop.

wishing upon a star at...|9:04 PM|

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Saturday, May 03, 2008

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hilda is growing and learning everyday
i feel
hahs yest was trying to apply makeup by myself
feel super lan
hahs
i am so nt girlish enough
this shall be my new goal fer the hols
to learn to cook and to apply make-up
and also cross stitch
cox i sudd feel like doing these kinda stuff
better master them before my enthuasiasm fizzles out agn
hahas :X

went out with wei yest
more retail therapy
spent lots sighz
realli shld cut back le
bought another blue top!
and make-up
the excitement of wearing new clothes always make me so happy!
am i bcuming a shopaholic too?

we walked ard the entire orchard so much
tt i am totally so tired out
haf decided to stay in today
cox the whole of the past wk have been out

mon will be another exciting day i tink
lookin forward to days where i am going out i tink
let me see....
mon: going out with "toh family" aka wy n jy
tues: interview + astro
wed: astro
thurs: astro
fri: minds outing + mothers' day dinner (unconfirmed)
sat: mummy n daddy flying off early in the morn :(
sun: church

wishing upon a star at...|1:29 PM|

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Friday, May 02, 2008

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after watchin pochahontas

i am in love with this song

hmmmm

watchin this lovely fairytale

makes me so blissful

hahs

wished it had a happier ending though

yest n today was cool!

had many first times

but somehow the more i slp, the more tired i am

saying goodbye may be just the beginning of a new encounter

maybe sometimes we have to look forward to the unknown tt the future will bring

just like john smith n pochahontas

just believe tt no one can take away ur memories or ur yesterdays

maybe i ought to be more homely

hahs

ur made my day these 2 days

thank you

supposed to pei ur

but tink it turned out to be the other way round

on my train trip back

saw a pregnant mother with her husband

she looks so blissful

hmmm makes me reconsider abt being a mother in future

hahs

the look in her husband's eyes, the happiness coming out of them

makes the ppl ard envious yet happy for them

hmmmm

hope the gift from heaven to them will bring them many days of happiness to come

maybe han ming is right

sometimes we need to take a while to smell the roses or rather just to reflect on our days ahead or whatever is alr past

to see our wrongs and rights

to treasure our gifts

our loved ones

to think abt the happy times

to remember...

to miss....

kinda like the times that i sometime spend on my bus or train trips where i watch the world go by and i tink abt my life

IF I NEVER KNEW YOU (Jon Secada and Shanice)

If I never knew you

If I never felt this love

I would have no inkling of

How precious life can be

And, if I never held you

I would never have a clue

How, at last, I'd find in you

The missing part of me
In this world so full of fear

Full of rage and lies

I can see the truth so clear

In your eyes; so dry your eyes

And I'm so grateful to you

I'd have lived my whole life through

Lost forever

If I never knew you

I'd be safe, but half as real

Never knowing I could feel

A love so strong and true

I'm so grateful to you

I'd have lived my whole life through

Lost forever

If I never knew you

I thought our love would be so beautiful

Somehow, we'd make the whole world bright

I never knew that fear and hate could be so strong

All they'd leave us were these whispers in the night

And, still, my heart is saying we were right

Oh, oh

If I never knew you

(There's no moment I regret)

If I never knew your love

(Since the moment that we met)

I would have no inkling of

(If our time has gone too fast)

How precious life can be

(I've lived at last)

I thought our love would be so beautiful (so beautiful)

Somehow, we'd make the whole world bright

I thought our love would be so beautiful

We'd turn the darkness into light

And, still, my heart is saying we were right

We were right
And, if I never knew you

(if I never knew you)

I'd have lived my whole life through

Empty as the sky

Never knowing why

Lost forever

If I never knew you

wishing upon a star at...|1:43 AM|

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