SoLiLoQuy

Sunday, June 29, 2008

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tired tired tired tired tired tired tired
snr camp is finally over!
now i unstd the difficulties of being programmer
being first to reach and last to leave
now i start to appreciate many events' backstage crew
the people behind many things that we tend to take for granted

i guess fright nite was the highlight
hahs
the thrill of being in the dark with the anticipation of awaiting for the ppl to come in
i feel abit psycho cox am like sittin in the dark with only 1 lightstick

my throat feels itchy these few days
annoying
keep having dry coughs
esp at nite
makes it so difficult to sleep properly
:(

oooh just saw in the papers saying that NUS n NTU sch grounds tend to be dark and secluded at nite
hmmm some gal was attacked at NUS
sounds scary
always thot sch was pretty safe

What Do I Mean To You?

by Howard A. Landman

Oh the sun is bright, and the ocean shines,
but not like your smile
And the sand is soft between our toes
on this peaceful little isle
We had our time here, and time moved so slow
But tomorrow I've got to go
I want to know so much, so tell me true
What do I mean to you?
What do I mean to you?

Oh the air is warm, and the clouds are soft,
but not like your skin
And the flowers here are gorgeous,
but they don't begin
To compare with the way you glow
With a light that moves me so
I want to know so much, so tell me true
What do I mean to you?

Bridge:
Laughter and delight is all fine for a while
It's hard to worry when you're close at hand
But will it last, or is this song just the cry of a loon?
And all my love a castle made of sand?

Oh the day is blue, and the water's deep,
but not like your eyes
And the waves wash on the shoreline
so it's no surprise
That your presence laps at my heart
Till I crumble and come apart
I want to know so much, so tell me true
What do I mean to you?
What do I mean to you?
What do I mean to you?
What do I mean to you?
What do I mean to you?

wishing upon a star at...|9:22 PM|

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Monday, June 16, 2008

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too many what ifs

?eb ot tnaem ti si

os epoh i

i hope i have enough faith and strength to hold on to what i believe in

wishing upon a star at...|11:37 AM|

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Sunday, June 15, 2008

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i tink i live life now in a sluggish way
nowadays my schedule is planned like week by week
sometimes only the day before, then i decide wat to do on the next day
hahs tink i am never satisfied
during exams, i wished i cld just do nth
during hols, i wish i can have sth to do
hahs

//maybe wen u have the right company
even silence seems so comfortable//

wishing upon a star at...|11:26 PM|

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Thursday, June 12, 2008

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was watching this show

not sure what is the actual name

but found it under "he was cool"

nice show~

sweet simple romance and comedy!

hahs

cheered me up a little

the ice cream helped too

am gettin more reliant on food to ease my bad moods

feeling needy now

sighz

hate this feeling

wishing upon a star at...|12:37 AM|

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Tuesday, June 10, 2008

[[love]]

Love is patient, love is kind.

It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud.

It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs.

Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth.

It always protects, always trust, always hopes, always perserveres.

Love never fails.

And now these three remain: faith, hope and love.

But the greatest of these is love.

1 Corinthians 13

sometimes i wonder how can one love so much

how can one give so much to another person

not knowing if the person can give as much or even more back in return

but i realised that that love is no exchange

love is selfish yet selfless,

ironic isn't it?

but yet ironic as it is,

it is one of the greatest things on earth and in the heavens

it makes people do the strangest and silliest things

beyond logic and imagination

irrational things that they would never do in their usual ways.

and also brings abt joy to some, yet at the same time, pain, to others.

and that is the power of love.

We love because he first loved us.

1 John 4:19

wishing upon a star at...|11:25 PM|

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Saturday, June 07, 2008

[[learning, growing]]

was reading a belated bible reading that i was supposed to read on thursday
then i realised i missed out on a lesson that was specially given to me by HIM
on thursday, 5th june
wen we were supposed to receive our results
god left a msg for me on my daily bread
but i failed to read it and draw comfort in his words
instead i neglected him and chose to wallow in my disappointments
i forgot that i could lean on him always

it says in the reading that
many times, we are not ready to see the wonder of god's wisdom and strength till we are gaspin for breath in the exhaustion of our own strength
the bible often shows that the mountains of faith rise from the valleys of failure
we need to see the failure of the dreams we hold in our hearts and trust instead in the love, wisdom and guidance of god.

i often chose to depend on myself to make the many decisions in life
forgetting to seek out the path that he has planned for me
i believed tt i was able to handle things on my own
but i was wrong
i falter and i feel weak n alone
but i forgot tt i was not alone in this path
i had him to carry my burdens

maybe this time he wants me to know that i should learn to pick myself up and strive harder
to achieve my expectations for myself
but always remember that i should lean on him fer strength and wisdom

"Why are you downcast, O my soul?
Why so disturbed within me?
Put your hope in God, for i will praise him
my Saviour and my God."
Psalms 42: 5-6

-the silent night mocks at my lonliness-

wishing upon a star at...|2:07 AM|

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Tuesday, June 03, 2008

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--我喜欢--

-梁静茹-

看蓝蓝的天空下绵绵的白雪停在你脸上
爱在巴黎的赛纳河畔上面眺望赶不上的玻璃船
却不觉得找不到遗憾早已沉醉在你暖暖的手掌
紧握住我不放偷偷的闻着你
带着孩子气的男人香

呼...我喜欢就这样靠在你胸膛
呼...我喜欢没有时间没有方向
呼...我喜欢像这样爱的好自然
不用管别人投什么眼光
随你带着我四处的游荡

呼...我喜欢一醒来有你在身旁
呼...我喜欢赖在床上看你喝汤
呼...我喜欢你的手放在我肩膀
像是担心我会消失一样
为我每一吋消瘦瘦弱而感伤
好想就这样有你在身旁一直到天长
在日记里圈上每一页都有你好幸福的时光
对照第一次见面到此刻的温柔是不是都一样

I tink I am happy. 好想就这样...一直到天长... -hiL-

wishing upon a star at...|9:43 PM|

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Monday, June 02, 2008

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i feel suffocated at times
so many things i want to tell others
but am afraid to
because of the consequences

the bible says the most beastful part of your body is the mouth
it can lead and praise but it can also destroy and bring down a country or hurt a person
one can tame any animal or beast on this world but not the tongue
this 2 ounces muscle is so dangerous

am suddenly aware of the world ard me
gossips and rumours can make or break so many things

am trying to keep myself busy to avoid thinkin of stuff
to deny access to the annoying voice in my heart

but try as i try, i can't convince myself to let go
though am painfully aware of what may happen
i would rather be hurt in the end than to never try before

now i unstd why isit so hard to be honest
it's not tt one does not have the intention to be honest
but sometimes maybe one cannot find the words to express oneself
preferrin which to keep it to oneself

take away my fears
take away my insecurities
i lay my decision in front of u
and i know lord, u will lead me the right way

//take a bow
my life is like a show
unveil the curtains
i must take one step at a time
everyone is watching
i must not fall
this is my moment
put on a smile
it need not be what i feel
all this will end soon
when i return to my room
Face the crowd
turn around
i'm halfway there now
no one shall see
the true self
the flashes and lights
wanting to shine deep within
all they see is a facade
music is fading
give a smile
take a bow//
-hilda-

wishing upon a star at...|2:35 AM|

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