SoLiLoQuy

Saturday, September 27, 2008

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i am a pig
i sleep and eat too much
slept the entire day away today
and gained wt recently
sighz
always happens when i am stressed

suddenly i feel the stress more than ever
the sudden recognisation of work undone and piling up
the impending quizzes and exams scares me
i suddenly realised i want to achieve lots
i wan go exchange, still abit aprehensive but i feel the urge to enter into a new env and explore my way ard
never had this feelings ever since the time wen i was deciding whether to go vj or nj
to leave my comfort zone and go into the other side of spore
ahhas

i feel more and more withdrawn from hall
less desire to get involved
dunwan to be entangled in the whirl of ......

i brought everyth upon myself
maybe suez is right
i have changed so much since she last know me
that now i no longer know myself
i dunno how to behave
how to be normal agn

recently i have been living more for others than myself

focus girl!
u have bigger issues ahead of u!

and have been so caught up in everyth
tt i lose track of time
i forgot abt god
i forgot abt having fun

just give me a day
where i can really play my heart out
and enjoy
i wan watch movie and eat popcorn!
ahhas
:(

and pls anyone,
remove my addiction to macs
otherwise i'll really bloat

wishing upon a star at...|8:48 PM|

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Wednesday, September 24, 2008

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things are happening so fast
i'm losing control
i feel caught up in everything
it's all my fault
so much i wan to say
but cant seem to find the words
and also dunno who to say it to
i just know i'm tired
i tried so hard to prevent all these conflicts and probs
but i guess i'm still bad at it
i duno how to control myself
my emotions
tt i cause ppl ard me to be worried n upset at me
i am unsure of my own feelings
i noe i am winning
but am i also losing at the same time?
dun be so nice to me
i am not worthy
i might just lose

the older i get
the more unhappy i bcome

wishing upon a star at...|8:17 PM|

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Monday, September 22, 2008

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today went to visit zion bible presbyterian church at serangoon gardens
with mummy n daddy
mummy used to go there when she was a teenager

there was a segment tt impacted me
the pastor was addressing the children before they left for their own worship service
he screened slides of the stars, sun & moon etc
asking the children every single time each picture was screened
who made this?
a child answered boldly the first time
god made the sun!
subsequently the rest picked up and responded with confidence loudly
god made the stars! god made the moon!
their simple faith so steadfast and strong
never wavering or doubting
it made me felt so ashamed of myself

god made all the works of nature
so beautiful and flawless
it is so easy to see from the sun, moon and stars that god made them!
yet i never see but simply go thru day after day
never being able to understand the simple msg god has for me
GOD MADE ME!
-psalms 19-

Matthew 16:4- a wicked and adulterous generation looks for a miraculous sign but none will be given it except the sign of jonah.

the works of nature are signs to me!
why shld i ask for a sign from god to prove his own existence to me when i already have so many things around me to remind me constantly that he made the sun, moon, stars and evryth
if i have to blame anyth for my lack of faith and reasons for my occasional doubt in him
i can only blame myself for looking but not seeing
knowing and believing but not trusting

GOD MADE ME TO LOVE ME

wishing upon a star at...|1:05 AM|

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Friday, September 19, 2008

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谢谢你的温柔
S.H.E
与飞轮海合唱
du... du.... du....du....du....
谢谢你如此温柔
捧着爱情静静等候
我的双手
其实同样在颤抖
但我能给你什么
我只是一个他遗忘的我
心被一扫而空
我会把你种在我心中
也许某天会终于再次长出一个梦

飞轮海:不知道
不明了
不想要
为什么
我的心
明明是想靠近
却孤单到黎明
不知道
不想要
不明了
为什么
我的心
那爱情的绮丽
总是在孤单里
再把我的最好的爱给你

S.H.E:
谢谢你如此温柔
点着笑容的灯火
只温暖而不打扰我的寒冬
还没决定往哪走
纔所以不能答应你陪我
怕你会变成我
我会把你种在我心中
也许某天会终于再次长出一个梦
不明了

飞轮海:
不知道
不想要
为什么
我的心
明明是想靠近
却孤单到黎明

不知道
不想要
不明了
为什么
我的心
那爱情的绮丽
总是在孤单里
再把我的最好的爱给你

飞轮海:
不知道
不想要
不明了
为什么
我的心
明明是想靠近
却孤单到黎明
不明了
不知道
不想要
为什么
我的心
那爱情的绮丽
总是在孤单里
再把我的最好的爱给你

S.H.E:
谢谢你如此温柔
点着笑容的灯火
只温暖而不打扰我的寒冬
还没决定往哪走
纔所以不能答应你陪我
怕你会变成我

this week has been a busy busy week!
hahs
but TGIF!
and it's recess wk!
not tt it's totally freed up for going outs and play
but then having no lessons for a wk is better than nothing
hahas

wishing upon a star at...|12:38 PM|

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Sunday, September 14, 2008

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moonie moonie in the sky
i think u are so so pretty!
but yet u look lonely up there
shrouded in the clouds
giving off a mysterious feel

i wonder if there is really anyth up there in the moon
moonie follows me everywhere
making me feel tt it is always watching me
when i was younger, weneva i was in the car or in a taxi going home, i would stare at the moon and admire its beauty
always wondering how come it never fails to move with me
it wld sometimes disappeare out of sight when the trees block its view
but i would always know that it would appear again after a while

i love snowskin mooncakes!
so pretty looking too!
so many colours!
but haven been eating much of them this time

when u are an emo mo mo
just eat ur fav food and watch tv!
u'll immed forget ur emo-ness
:)
this time snickers really came in handy

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wishing upon a star at...|1:07 AM|

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Saturday, September 06, 2008

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some insights i had recently:

you can never say u truely understand another person

no one is comparable to another as everyone is too different

when u receive a gift, take time to think about the effort behind it
it may be more than u ever imagine
the thought and effort taken to obtain it and the sincerity to give it prob is more precious than the gift

a hug sometimes mean more than anything
it can say a thousand words that one cannot express
a simple smile can chase all the blues away
it can brighten one's day

simple pleasures are bliss
just having my favourite food makes me happy like subway!
or having ice cream on a warm day
and a hot cup of tea on a cold day
or wearing sth tt u feel good in
or wearing pretty earrings!
or having snickers choc!

watching the rain as the shuttle bus trudges along makes me deep in thought and lost in my own world

i do not know how to love
i am touched by how much others love each other so much
tt they can do much fer the other person
i wonder if i can ever do the same

different ppl care in diff ways
some do it outwardly, some more discreetly
if you do not see the care shown to u, it does not mean the others do not care, they may do it by the little actions or just do not know how to express it

love is blind
sometimes we wonder how come one does not notice the flaws in the other
but he/she does know the flaws of the other, just that he chooses to embrace them as part of the other person
and love the other person as a whole

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wishing upon a star at...|6:52 PM|

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