SoLiLoQuy

Thursday, October 23, 2008

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fellowship was so encouraging yest
i needed to know so badly that he is always there
i can simply lean on him
to depend on him for everyth i need
to believe that he will provide for me
to believe tt he will substain me
the strength for my studies
the emotional strength to handle my feelings
to learn to be on my own

John 2
the servants cld obey so faithfully and undoubtedly to a nobody's commands
and put their jobs at the risk
they trusted jesus despite not knowing wat he can do

i am so dumb dumb
to run away from him
thinkin tt i can handle everyth on my own
it is so simple
i just need to trust n have faith
but i am too stubborn all along
i carried my burdens
forgetting tt he's always remindin me tt he can carry them for me

this morn
i woke up
feeling as if it's the worst day of my life
i felt so tired
so tired of everyth
felt tt i was all alone
but aft talkin to both of u,
i feel alot better
this way is the best for 3 of us
the pain n hurt will only be temporary
the scars will remain
but we will be alright soon
we will move on
and be happy in our own way

soon i'll be alittle older
hopefully alittle stronger
more independent
but i know now i'm finally finally free

to U:

我累了不等了爱淡了梦远了放手了
i realised this like abt 1 wk ago
maybe all this while, i was denying the truth in front of me
i held on even though it hurt so much
now promise me u will let go
do not go thru wat i went thru fer u anymore
i tried to revive it and rmb how we used to be
but it just wasnt the same
maybe i've changed
or rather it was all too late
when u try to pull me back, i have alr let u go
let all these be memories
and we will be able to create new ones as frens agn

to u:
thank u
u were always there
always always
through my ups n downs
u are the most innocent victim in this
it was my fault tt u were brought into this
so now i agree to let u go
bcox i know it will make u happier
and i thank u for teachin me the most impt thing in this world

to both of u:
this is the end of US
but it's the beginning of U and ME

our yesterdays will always be our yesterdays
but i look forward to our todays n tomorrows!

hilda finally understands what she wanted all along

to learn to let go.
to learn to be strong.
to learn to love and be loved.

to be free.

wishing upon a star at...|3:08 PM|

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Sunday, October 19, 2008

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Full Original Serenity Prayerby Reinhold Niebuhr (1892-1971)

God, give us Grace to accept with serenity
the things that cannot be changed,
Courage to change the things
which should be changed,
and the Wisdom to distinguish
the one from the other.

Living one day at a time,
Enjoying one moment at a time,
Accepting hardship as a pathway to peace,
Taking, as Jesus did,
This sinful world as it is,
Not as I would have it,
Trusting that You will make all things right,
If I surrender to Your will,
So that I may be reasonably happy in this life,
And supremely happy with You
forever in the next.
Amen.

wishing upon a star at...|12:54 PM|

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Life keeps gettin in the way
Whenever i try, somehow the plan is always rearranged
It's so hard to say
But I've gotta do what's best for me
You'll be ok...
I've got to move on and be who I am
I just don't belong here
I hope you understand
We might find our place in this world someday
But at least for now
I gotta go my own way
Don't wanna leave it all behind
But I get my hopes up
And I watch them fall everytime
Another color turns to grey
And it's just too hard to watch it all
Slowly fade away

i have reached the pt of no return
am broken and torn till i feel no more
inside of me it hurts so much
tt there is no more us
a part of me wan so much for u to unstd how i feel
but i know it's pointless
even if u noe, there is no turning back
we just are not meant to be
my wilfulness and stubborness only brought us pain
no more guessing
no more lying
no more hiding
there is only me left on my own
i gotta go my own way
and be who i wan to be
with or without me
u will be ok
cried till i can cry no more
am tired
let's end this once n for all

wishing upon a star at...|3:18 AM|

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Wednesday, October 15, 2008

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接受
梁静茹

仿佛上一分钟
你还陪在我左右
还以为我们会
开花结果
我还记得玫瑰色天空
却模糊了我们的脸孔
哼过的歌到底是什么内容
仿佛已经自由
下一刻我变成风
吹过你的领空
差点失控
回忆在夜里闹得很凶
我想我可以明白你所有的痛
想让你知道我懂
却担心言不由衷

我们都接受
一定是彼此不够成熟
在爱情里分不了轻重
诚实得过了头
不能退后也无法向前走
爱是一个自私的念头
把寂寞消除的理由
剩下的那些感动
能记得多久

仿佛已经自由
下一刻我变成风
吹过你的领空
差点失控
回忆在夜里闹得很凶
我想我可以明白你所有的痛
想让你知道我懂
却担心言不由衷

我们都接受
一定是彼此不够成熟
在爱情里分不了轻重
诚实得过了头
不能退后也无法向前走
爱是一个自私的念头
把寂寞消除的理由
剩下的那些感动
能记得多久

我们都接受
一定是彼此不够成熟
在爱情里分不了轻重
诚实得过了头
不能退后也无法向前走
爱是一个自私的念头
把寂寞消除的理由
剩下的那些感动
能记得多久

wishing upon a star at...|12:12 AM|

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Tuesday, October 14, 2008

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blind no more
for now i see
what lies clear ahead of me
i will walk on...

no longer spinnin on the same spot
in an endless circle

when u are alr hurt n bruised far too much
maybe u will no longer fear
to leave all that is familiar
to walk on and explore what is unknown ahead
bcox there is alr nothing more to lose

wishing upon a star at...|3:32 PM|

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Friday, October 10, 2008

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this is the time i know i have to come to terms with everyth
all this has dragged on far too long
maybe i neglected god too long
i all the while i was strong enuff to handle it on my own
but i was wrong
i give it all up to u lord
all my troubles, worries and helplessness
i am weak and can no longer carry on on my own
and i know god will carry me through
like he always did
somehow i feel that this is the time for a breakthrough
to break out of my routine
and try more new stuff
been abit braver than usual recently
though still feelin wimpy sometimes
i am confident things will get better from now on
with god on my side
he will bring more wonderful ppl to my side
to acc me on my life journey
and really i do love the ppl ard me
which is why it really hurts now
to do what i have to do
but i know it's the right thing
for all of us

wishing upon a star at...|10:39 PM|

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Thursday, October 09, 2008

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it hurts
when u behave this way

wishing upon a star at...|5:36 PM|

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Friday, October 03, 2008

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give me
a little more perserverance
a little more faith
a little more trust
a little more kindness
a little more niceness
a little more hope
a little more determination
a little more love
a little more care

there is nothing tt i CAN'T do, there's only i CAN if i want to and i WILL!

suddenly i realise in all things, there are sacrifices
to get wat u wan, u often have to give up sth else
which explains why it's super hard to be mugger
hahas

wishing upon a star at...|1:21 AM|

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