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Tuesday, March 31, 2009

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March 31, 2009
Does God Care?
READ: Mark 14:32-42

[Jesus] began to be troubled and deeply distressed. Then He said to them, “My soul is exceedingly sorrowful, even to death.” —Mark 14:33-34
One dreadful year, three of my friends died in quick succession.
My experience of the first two deaths did nothing to prepare me for the third. I could do little but cry.
I find it strangely comforting that when Jesus faced pain, He responded much as I do.
It comforts me that He cried when His friend Lazarus died (John 11:32-36).
That gives a startling clue into how God must have felt about my friends, whom He also loved.
And in the garden the night before His crucifixion, Jesus did not pray, “Oh, Lord, I am so grateful that You have chosen Me to suffer on Your behalf.” No, He experienced sorrow, fear, abandonment, even desperation. Hebrews tells us that Jesus appealed with “vehement cries and tears to Him who was able to save Him from death” (5:7). But He was not saved from death.
Is it too much to say that Jesus Himself asked the question that haunts us: Does God care?
What else can be the meaning of His quotation from that dark psalm: “My God, My God, why have You forsaken Me?” (Ps. 22:1; Mark 15:34).
Jesus endured in His pain because He knew that His Father is a God of love who can be trusted regardless of how things appear to be.
He demonstrated faith that the ultimate answer to the question Does God care? is a resounding Yes!

The aching void, the loneliness,And all the thornclad way,To Thee I turn with faith undimmedAnd ’mid the darkness pray. —O. J. Smith
When we know that God’s hand is in everything, we can leave everything in God’s hand.

wishing upon a star at...|4:44 PM|

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Sunday, March 22, 2009

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"God Loves Ugly"

You said that I wasn't pretty
So I just believed you
And you said that I wasn't special
So I lived that way
With critical gazes and brutal amazement
And how my reflection could be so imperfect
With all of my blemishes, how could somebody want me?

[Chorus]
But God loves ugly
He doesn't see the way I see
Oh god takes ugly
And turns it into to something that is beautiful
Apparently I'm beautiful
Cause you love me
Whoa, oh

I tried to clean up the outside
All shiny and new
Worked over time to thin up and look right
But inside I knew
That deep in the bottom were secrets I thought I could try to ignore
Old ghosts in my corridors
Never get tired of haunting the past that's in me

[Chorus]
But God loves ugly
He doesn't see the way I see
Oh god takes ugly
And turns it into to something that is beautiful
Apparently I'm so beautiful
Cause you love me

Help me believe why you love me
When I know you see
You see everything
Help me believe why you love me
When I know you see
Inside and you still say I'm beautiful

You're telling me I'm beautiful
Your screaming out I'm so beautiful
And I'm finding out I'm beautiful
You're making me so beautiful
And I can see I'm beautiful
Cause you love me
Whoa, oh

sometimes it's funny how god gets to us to remind us to go back into his arms
the human angels ard us tt reminds me of to him
today uncle david said to me
each person's attendance is very impt in cep
bcox if one keeps on not turning up
it becomes a discouragement to others

and he mentioned during cep
that once we let ourselves slip a few times
it is so much harder to go bk to HIM again

cep today was abt plants and trees that god uses in the bible
it was so interesting
these so called insignificant works of nature can mean so much and be so symbolic and apt to describe the character of god
so cool!
he is the lily of the valley
the true vine
the olive tree that supports its branches

one day i want to go to the promised land in israel
and see the garden of gethsemane
and unstd why my lord favours it so

when i see the differences between us

i question myself whether it is your will, god,
and my duty to fulfill to u
and it makes me want to grow closer to u
becox i dunwan to lose u, o lord, bcox of my decision

wishing upon a star at...|2:38 PM|

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Monday, March 16, 2009

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sometimes certain things only magnify the differences between us and push us further apart
i realise that it is really hard to give in sometimes
to learn to give and take
i think i still have a lot to learn in my own personal journey

even when sometimes u cannot understand another person's perspective
u still have to try to put urself in another person's shoes
and try to rationalise
it's really not as easy as i thought

i am thankful for my relationships
bcox they taught me abt sacrifice and love

wishing upon a star at...|12:34 AM|

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Thursday, March 05, 2009

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sometimes i dun unstd how come u dun unstd wat i want
i'm afraid of being unreasonable
of being quarrelsome
or am i?

am tired out
going for lessons, project meetings and having a long list of endless stuff to do seems to be repetitive and never ending
i have in total 4 projects, one for each subject
and sometimes i wonder why i am surrounded by the smartest people one can imagine
or isit bcox i happen to be dumb one?
or maybe i am too lazy?
i hate accountancy :(
shld have done eng literature or english
sighz
regrets agn

wanna go overseas!
wana fly away to somewhere
just for a while
to see the sights of this world
to see the beauty that you created for us
to lie in a sea of flowers, among the cheerful sunflowers and the lovely lavenders and sweet tulips
to scream from the top of the hills and mountains of the highest heights possible that no man can recreate
to see the clouds billow by, forming all sorts of imaginable creatures and shapes
to soak in the waters of the sea, just waiting for time to pass by

not bothering abt PA
not bothering abt INSTEP
not bothering abt GPA
not bothering abt 201, 202, 214, 213
all the gross symbols and numbers that they represent

i suddenly fear wat next semester will bring
i fear that everything i known of and grown used to will change

wishing upon a star at...|9:25 PM|

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