SoLiLoQuy

Wednesday, September 30, 2009

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HILDA TOH YI TING IS BLOODY IRRITATED

wishing upon a star at...|11:29 AM|

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Thursday, September 24, 2009

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ARGH
why things can't go the way i want them to?
i hate it when it doesn't turn out the way i want

i hate it that u are not here with me
when i am unhappy
i hate it that sometimes it doesn't occur to u why i feel a certain way
but i know acceptance is the way

i forgot how we became close
and many times i wonder why...
i hate it when i feel weaker and inferior compared to u whenever u are around me

i hate the fact that she asked me that question
even though it was trivial
i still took it seriously
i still consider it insulting and unforgivable
argh
why can't i just forget it
i know she doesn't mean it
but it irritates me to the core, like to the max
damn it
and i hate how u dun understand the frustration i feel

i know i am stubborn and i hate giving in to ppl even on minor things abt where to go
but i know i have to
because that is the way to avoid conflicts and problems
i need to mellow down and change my fiery temper

so many hates
yet i can't hate
learn to forgive other
and give to others
and love others
because love is what HE wants me to do

my CEP tcher said a story that day in church
her husband and her both christians
were reversing and their neighbours' car drove past n knocked into them
even though it was their neighbours' fault as they din horn and give any signal
my tcher's husband still compensated them

when my tcher asked her husband why he did tt
he said: love your neighbour.full stop.

my tcher then told me she learnt alot from that simple incident
even though eventually they found out that the other party were christians and yet they din give in but demanded for compensation despite it being their fault
yet it doesn't mean we must follow them and be like them

so hilda must love her neighbour.
neighbour in the bible = anyone who is not ur family

wishing upon a star at...|11:37 PM|

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sometimes i wish i have a wand
that i can swing around and make others' wants and wishes come true
bcox i dunno how to comfort another person
so i gez the best way is for me to help me solve their problems
:(
i dunno what to say
i wish i can change things for u
but it is not within my reach
sighz

let's just hope things will still turn out well
and be a blessing in disguise

wishing upon a star at...|12:47 AM|

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Saturday, September 19, 2009

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i can't sleep :(
keep thinking why things have turned out like that
and how to resolve the issues at hand
all i want to do is to 一起锁住时间留更多纪念
i want my final year to be memorable and perfect
with my friends to share it with me
let everything be alright soon again ok?
please please!

锁住时间

是桃花染红等待的脸
是鸳鸯弄皱三月的湖水
是春风围绕把我们圈在里面
思绪飞舞成蝴蝶
一并肩哪里都像花园
一牵手做每件事都像庆典

一谈心聊天走进另一个世界
有梦就会实现
锁住时间让感动蔓延
你的手心许着盟约
Oh 一起锁住时间留更多纪念
最爱剪贴属于我们的细节

在不能见时种下思念
任思念开花结果长成眷恋
将眷恋串成独一无二的项链
吻在你的胸前

锁住时间让感动蔓延
你的手心许着盟约
Oh 一起锁住时间留更多纪念
最爱剪贴属于我们的细节

我确定这次不会一眨眼
快乐就剩下照片幸福就剩下怀念
我听到真心碰到真心的瞬间
发出了清脆铃声像音乐美得人落泪
说一句肺腑之言让天听见
做一件无怨无悔的事让天看见
会不会今天就忘了转动时间
看着我们的故事嫉妒又赞美

锁住时间让感动蔓延
你的手心许着盟约
Oh 一起锁住时间留更多纪念
最爱剪贴属于我们的细节

锁住时间留更多纪念
最爱剪贴属于我们的细节

but sometimes i wish u see things my way

wishing upon a star at...|3:16 AM|

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Tuesday, September 15, 2009

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call me petty if u want
but i still dun like the idea
esp when it's proudly being broadcast
argh
it makes my insides go on fire
when i heard abt it
eeks

today was ministerial forum!
all the long wait for nothing bores me to death
but then in the end was glad that at least got to stay for the forum
it was quite enriching and insightful esp the Q&A session
:)

wishing upon a star at...|11:00 PM|

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Saturday, September 12, 2009

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Moral of the story:
Stay in the room
Mind your own business
Keep to yourself
Talk to no one

wishing upon a star at...|1:56 PM|

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Friday, September 11, 2009

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i hate having to give in
i hate to feel like i am desperately wanting forgiveness
esp when i do not feel i am in the wrong

wishing upon a star at...|12:03 AM|

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Thursday, September 10, 2009

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got so hard to understand meh?
argh
talk abt sensitivity

wishing upon a star at...|11:03 PM|

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we just got back from watching final destination 4!
it's really gory! all the blood splashing everywhere and ppl being mutilated
and dying in so many different ways
suddenly i feel safety is of upmost importance
esp since one can get injured due to another person's carelessness in a most unintentional manner
dun like the ending, so lame!
throughout the show, can hear guojun laughing non-stop
joyce covering her face in the same manner as me
and kenneth giving sudden shrieks
ahhas
:X

anw the bf says going out together on 09/09/09
means chang chang jiu jiu
i hope that works
cox it would mean i would have the best of both worlds
with muffin club and the boyfriend
hahas
then i would be a happy gal i tink

wishing upon a star at...|12:51 AM|

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Wednesday, September 09, 2009

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thank you for sharing with me
it made me think through and understand a lot of things better
now i am more cautious and protective of what i possess
i know it has not come easy
and thus should be nurtured instead of given up

as for you, i hope that you will be strong
bcox u know that you have made the right decision
for both of you
it may be difficult initially
but u know that eventually it is for the best

suddenly hilda realises sometimes she see things in a perspective too small
there is so many other people stronger than her

busy busy busy the last few days
seems like the days pass so quickly
all of a sudden, august is over,
so many hall events have passed as well

wishing upon a star at...|11:30 AM|

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