SoLiLoQuy

Thursday, February 25, 2010

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只為愛上你 - S.H.E

如果说这世界不够完美不够好
一定是在等我们亲手给它变得美好
就像爱看起来会那么少一定是
在等我们一起勇敢的寻找一起找到

一片片落叶为开出个花园
手牵手捱过整个冬天
每只蝴蝶为了飞
为了翩翩起舞先做一个茧
最美海岸线总是要很蜿蜒
才足够让人忘返流连
你的身边要不是
比天边还遥远勇气怎么出现
当我终于住进你的心里
分享同一个世界
身后错过痛过漫长情节
都变甜美

只有我了解这幸福感觉
美得值得去付出一切
能够遇见你认识你喜欢你爱上你
感谢我每滴眼泪
只有你明白我有多珍贵
好得值得你为我改变
请你继续温柔交换我灿烂笑容
一天一天到永远那一天

Yeh 爱上你有多幸运
像是天使的礼物
我们不要辜负这幸福
一定要更加幸福
如果爱真的是那么的少
我们就
一起守护我们得来不易的爱不被打扰

当你终于走到我的面前
完整所有的画面
就算苦辣酸甜尝过一遍
只剩喜悦
像是大雨过后晴朗的天宽阔而耀眼
每个黎明都需要有夜成全
往回看每兜一个圈
每一条迂回的曲线
都是为爱上你必须留的伏线

wishing upon a star at...|3:09 PM|

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Wednesday, February 24, 2010

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so much to look forward yet also so much to worry about!
been trying to catch up with 306 tutorials
and everyone says the same thing, 306 is really damn hard!!!

lets see,
sat: hall production (can see joycie become evilpok, hahas cox she says i will hate her role as she is acting a mean girl)
sun: movie with the boyfriend, FOC appreciation lunch, jie jie's ROM
start of recess wk!
mon: 306 lecture
tues: block initiative
wed: 306 presentation and tutorial
thurs: ?
fri: ?
sat: ?
sun: ?
school starts again..
mon: 304 mid term & 306 mid term (so gonna die, my nightmares!)
tues: ?
wed: 304 quiz
thurs: ?
fri: CS100 quiz
and a case study to submit soon! ahhh so much to do!
freaking stressed out!

hopefully we can go all block initiative tog
afterall it's our last as muffins
lets make it a date k!
:)

wishing upon a star at...|8:37 PM|

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Tuesday, February 23, 2010

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are friendships that weak to withstand any misunderstandings and disagreements?
are relationships that weak to withstand distance and the passing of time?
has love become so fragile?
have two people who once promised to be together
To have and to hold, in sickness and in health, for richer or for poorer
forgotten what it is like to love each other?

friends around me seems to be all facing problems now
yet i do not know how to comfort them
yesterday i whispered a prayer to him to ask him to help me to be a pillar of strength and a comforter to others
because they are the ones who cared for me when i was down too
sighz
i find it disconcerting that when i have jus recently how to put my own sadness aside,
my friends around me start having to face their own personal obstacles and challenges
maybe there are more that i may not know about

dear gal,
i want to tell you that there is nothing that you can do abt the situation
but jus pray to him
because we both know that things are beyond our control
seek him, ask him and he will provide
have faith and dun keep everything to yourself yea?

dear gal,
i believe things will work out for u bcox i have seen how ur r/s blossomed
i have faith that both of u are able to compromise and learn to make time for each other
this period is going to be tough
but hang in there...

dear friend,
i dun really know what to tell you anymore
but i really hope that the friendship will be mended once more
i din expect things to turn up this way
i am sorry cox i did aid in it i guess

dear joycie,
happy bday! :)
stay happy! and i really hope ya like wat we did for ya :)

i almost forgot the feeling of making someone happy that it can make me so happy too

dear friend,
i think you will not read this
but i pray for u too
bcox maybe i think too much into it
but i somehow feel that u have some difficulty adjusting
but i know u can handle it!

i treasure ur so much
but yet isit really true that all good things have to come to an end
been thinking abt it qt alot recently
and i fear that wat ur said may really come true
but it's actually within our control rite?
we can still make effort to keep in touch

wishing upon a star at...|3:21 PM|

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Saturday, February 13, 2010

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sometimes when someone asks me if i am ok
i duno what to reply
should i say dun worry i am fine
or should i say the truth?
that it hurts so deep inside that i feel helpless
i try to forget
but in the end the heart still feels empty
our family get-togethers always revolve ard ah ma
but now it is incomplete without her
sometimes i look ard the family to see where she is, expecting her to be around
yet forgetting that she is no longer with us
then the truth will dawn upon me once more
and somehow the heart will ache

especially when i am alone
the tears jus come
and i cant seem to focus on my quizzes

maybe it's because i have never lost a loved one before
in the past when ah gong passed away, i was still beyond the age of understanding
everything feels like they dun matter anymore
nothing feels the same anymore

i want to pull myself out of it
but i need some more time i guess
sometimes as the days go by, i fear i will forget how she looks like
i hold her in my memories and in my heart

wishing upon a star at...|12:23 AM|

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Thursday, February 11, 2010

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she left us as of 10.02am tuesday
we will never celebrate our birthdays together anymore
no one will share my chinese birthday with me anymore
i will never be able to fulfill the promise of treating her to a meal when i start working
i tink i never appreciated her enough when she was around
because there was always a communication barrier
i miss the way she imitates me when i am hungry
i miss the way she always ask abt my school results
i regretted not visiting her more
everything seems like a dream
or rather a nightmare
sometimes being around others make me forget the fact she's gone
but somehow when i'm alone
the truth comes back to hit me harder than before
one thing that will remain for a long while is that i really miss her
this family feels incomplete without you

wishing upon a star at...|12:47 PM|

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Sunday, February 07, 2010

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i am really going to lose my ah ma

i am so glad i went to visit her on sat
when she was still able to talk, although not properly
but i tink that will be the last time she looked me full in the eye
bcox in just one night
her condition deteoriated so fast
today we all got alerted to rush down in the morning
as she suffered the 4th stroke in less than 3 months
she can no longer respond with her limbs and her eyes are closed with no sign of acknowledging watever we say
she just keeps gasping for air
with her heartbeat fluctuatin from 85 to 120
this is the first time i saw my extended family cry
even the uncles and daddy as well
because the doctor says tt she has only 10% chance of survival
these 2 days will be the critical period
we are taking turns to monitor her 24/7
i will be taking the midnite to 7am shift on mon nite
since i have no lessons on tues
and everyone else is working

i dun tink she will make it till cny anymore

wishing upon a star at...|6:12 PM|

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Saturday, February 06, 2010

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sighz ah ma went into hospital again :(

wishing upon a star at...|1:30 PM|

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Tuesday, February 02, 2010

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finally got my dose of durian to ease my cravings!!
hahas big grinns!!!
looking forward to cny dinner tonight!
mainly because it's really hard for muffins to all gather together~
but then again guojun and kenneth wun be sitting with us
oh wells! there is yushen to eat! woo hoo!
:)

anw last few days were bad
but then again i came to terms to certain things
i always want my the other half to have the same clique of friends as me
so that we will both enjoy our friends' company together
though things are not turning out the way i want them to
but i think having different group of friends will be fine too
though it will be pretty awkward for me but then i'll try to get used to it
we all need our own space i suppose
time to spend with our friends
and time for each other
i jus need to learn to sort that out

i am so slow in reading my 306 TB that i still haven started my seminar questions!
so hard!
i feel slack! haven been doing any work this week yet

wishing upon a star at...|11:37 AM|

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giving me your best is not giving me the last of everything

wishing upon a star at...|12:42 AM|

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Monday, February 01, 2010

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give me a break
i had enough of it already

lord please dun tell me this is ur test for me
can i admit defeat already?
i am not as strong as u think

i am tired and sick of all this PR stuff

don't try to pretend to know me

wishing upon a star at...|11:09 AM|

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this sux
when i am being wronged when i was being nice about it
when i am trying to give in and yet i end up being blamed for everything
when i am giving it all i can to explain the situation and yet i get a cold stare in return
when i am trying my best and u dun give a damn

wishing upon a star at...|3:14 AM|

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