SoLiLoQuy

Tuesday, April 27, 2010

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sometimes i really wonder if i am just super paranoid or going insane
i have nightmares every night
and even today during my half an hour nap
unbelievable!
it gets worse during exam periods i tink
and i dun unstd why how come i get 8 hrs of slp everyday
but still wake up feeling so dead beat, as if i hardly slept at all
maybe it's cox i always get disruptive sleep
and i have to wake up every night at certain timings

i really tink i am weird
i dream of all sorts of things
they are never pleasant dreams
and they scare me silly
every night before i slp
i imagine all sorts of things creeping ard my bed (regardless at home or at hall)
trying to harm me
no matter how anyone comforts me like mummy and daddy
i still can't get over it
and somehow slping with a night light switched on doesnt reassure me much anymore
i am just sucha scaredy cat
i am tired of myself
but there is nth i can do abt it
my dreams haunt me

i must be mad
right?

wishing upon a star at...|11:09 PM|

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Monday, April 26, 2010

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i am so tired and stressed!
even though everyone thinks that final sem is so slack
especially since i have like only 3 exams and 11 AUs
but i really don't feel very slack at all
in fact i tink this sem is the sem that i have studied the hardest for
i feel this immense sense of pressure to do well
and it weighs down on me till i feel so burdened
sighz
the fear of not being able to grad motivates me to press on
but i am really tired now
i want to do my best for myself, for my parents
omg just 1 more week or so to freedom!

wishing upon a star at...|11:01 PM|

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Sunday, April 18, 2010

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am so glad i din miss CEP today
learnt precious lessons
and we all shared our journey in finding our way to Christ
though we have different experiences with Him
We shared a common bond
in that we all love him and have him in the centre of our world

really want to share what i learn about him today
but i left the stuff at home
so wells when i get home next day
i must definitely blog about it!!
hahas

suddenly thought about this verse today
cox someone in CEP shared about it
which i find it super comforting in this exam period
:)

(He said)
"My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness"
Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ's power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ's sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong.
2 Corinthians 12:9-10

we often wonder why we have to go through pain and suffering
examinations and countless things we dread to bear
however, if we never knew all these, would we know how much he means to us?
we would never have learnt to lean on him, to allow him to carry our burdens and care for us
he would never put us through trials beyond what we can bear
so trust in him

in this period when i feel weak and sometimes powerless
i read this verse and i feel refreshed again
hopefully this verse encourages anyone who is reading this too :)

He gives strength to the weary
and increases the power of the weak
Even youths grow tired and weary
and young men stumble and fall
but those who hope in the Lord
will renew their strength
They will soar on wings like eagles
they will run and not grow weary
they will walk and not be faint.
Isaiah 40:29-31

wishing upon a star at...|11:59 PM|

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Tuesday, April 13, 2010

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i slept at 10PM yesterday and woke up at 9AM today!
i am sucha piggy
haven slept at 10pm ever since secondary school
but i felt so tired
more of mentally exhausted actually
was abit disappointed at myself for the quiz yest
cox i kinda knew the comparison would be tested but yet i din really pay attention to it
but anw i really studied very hard!
so sorta comforted myself ba

i still feel so tired
sighz
though i sleep a lot everyday

wishing upon a star at...|9:20 AM|

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Thursday, April 08, 2010

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oh mans
was so gian about the microwavable popcorn that was passed around during the mini movie screening yest
that i dragged the boyfriend to JP today to search for it in NTUC
and we found it!
can't wait to start popping and making my own popcorn!
and can have the movie theatre type of popsie cornie right in the comfort of my room in hall or at home!
yays!!!
i feel so noob for not knowing about sucha great invention till now...
i tink it's gonna be a great companion for the rest of my life
oh wells i still need to figure how to pop it with the microwave first
pretty freaked out about using the microwave ever since i burnt my supposedly microwavable container the previous time i used the microwave oven to heat it
but for the sake of my beloved popcorn
i need to try my luck with it again
sighz i am just not a kitchen person

wishing upon a star at...|12:18 AM|

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Sunday, April 04, 2010

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omg!
i am so happy and touched
cox my 301 prof who taught me last sem
emailed me specially to tell me he cannot come for my convocation
cox he will be going abroad
he's so nice! so touched he rmb me!

it does feels good to be remembered occasionally!!

steamboat yest was tad bit disappointign cox of the variety of food and service
but still glad can eat buffet!
ahhas and playing pool was quite fun!
:)

Because He lives, I can face tomorrow
Because He lives, all fear is gone
Because I know, I know He holds the future
and life is worth the living
Just Because He lives!

Happy Easter!
I am glad He died for me and now lives forevermore! :)

wishing upon a star at...|10:39 PM|

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