SoLiLoQuy

Thursday, May 27, 2010

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it's sucha strange feeling
how a certain thing like that can make me feel surreal for so long
until now, i still cannot believe that i am graduating, or rather graduated
scary!
i feel so elated
and after seeing facebook
i am like woah
so many ppl share my thoughts
everyone really seems happy to be graduating
hahas
i suddenly look forward to convocation
when all the time i thought i wouldnt want to attend it

although occasionally a wave of thoughts will pass with the lingering regret that i did not do well enough as my peers
or what i really expected of myself for uni
i realised i need to be contented
and i am really still basking in my own happiness
let me just soak in that atmosphere for a little longer kk
i am really loving it
cox i feel so relieved
after so many months and years of worrying whether i will actually make it
oh gosh,
i knew i couldn't have done it without u
cox even at the point of looking at results, i still prayed and knew that u were with me every step of the way
oh god, i thank you.

daddy seems happy that he doesnt have to pay that additional 3k to let me study 306 all over again
hahas i am too
cox that will be an additional 3k debt
:P

wishing upon a star at...|11:54 PM|

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dear world,

can u feel my happiness?
i may not be getting 2nd uppers as i once decided i must get when i first went into University
but i am happy with what i got
and to graduate now
i may not be the best or the cleverest
but at least i do what i can

and the best surprise of it all
is that this sem results are considered my best other than 1st sem
which goes to show that if i work hard, perhaps my overall gpa shld have been much better
hahas
but everything is worth it
cox i loved and lost, gained and learnt, played and studied as hard as i could
during this 3 years
and i think i learnt more than just accountancy stuff
i learnt more about myself and others ard me
so this 3 years is not wasted
i may not done as well as others academically
but i still enjoyed myself

dreams hold our lives together, and we live each day achieving one dream after another (quoted from the 10pm show bai quan nu wang)
this is just the end of one chapter in my life, and it will be the beginning of another
hilda is happy!

wishing upon a star at...|12:26 AM|

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Wednesday, May 26, 2010

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i hope that one day i will never have to receive such a letter

THE LETTER:

My friend, I stand in judgment now and feel that you're to blame somehow.
While on this earth I walked with you day by day. And you never did point the way.
you knew the Lord in truth and glory but never did you tell the story.
My knowledge then was very dim. You could have led me safe to him.
Though we lived together here on earth, You never told me of your second birth.
And now I stand this day condemned because you failed to mention him.
You taught me many things, that's true. I called you friend and trusted you.
But I learnt now that it's too late. You could have kept me from this fate.
We walked by day and talked by night, and yet you showed me not the light.
And you let me live, love, and die, and all the while you knew I'd never live on high.
Yes, I called you friend in life and I trusted you in joy and stife.
And yet in coming to this end, I see you weren't my friend.

wishing upon a star at...|1:19 PM|

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Thursday, May 20, 2010

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this holidays will be a start of new beginnings
have just booked my basic theory test for driving
as well as my initial consultation for braces
am so scared!!!!!

i totally hate driving
and i totally hate goin to the dentist

i know i will be a road hazard
and from young, i always wanted to be chaffeured ard
argh
but now daddy doesnt want me to work this holidays
and he wans me to take up driving
sighz
and of all things, he says take auto
when he was the one who forced kor2 n jie2 to take manual in the past
the thing is, his car is still manual
i tink he figured out it will take far too long fer me to learn
thus auto will be easier and faster to pick up

braces will be a whole new step in my life
am freaking out like mad now jus thinking abt it
but i guess it will be a matter of time that i have to face it

first dental consultation: 23rd june
btt: 28th june
oh my month of horrors!

pray that i'll survive!

wishing upon a star at...|2:39 PM|

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Tuesday, May 18, 2010

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i hate doing things that i dunwan to do
daddy is "encouraging" me to learn driving
which i have been delaying since 18
and absolutely no interest in
i have no hand-eye coordination and direction sense whatsoever
and plus it costs like 2k plus
sighz
wat a torture
and i would need to commute to admiralty all the time
so damn far
argh

:(
super upset!!!!

i wan to get a job instead
seems more worthwhile to me

wishing upon a star at...|11:32 PM|

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Thursday, May 06, 2010

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i know it's very weird of me to say this
but i really love the feeling of hole-ing in the library
even though it's jus after exams
i love the feeling where u can read a book without any worries
without feeling if u need to complete any assignments later or watsoever
so me and my book
in the world of my own

am here now in my library world blogging
and watching the world go by
:)
simple contentment

tml is nana's outing
:)

i think i know why i dun miss hall
i probably have just lost my love for it
and the friends that remain are only so few
i guessed i have done whatever i have wanted to do
and there is no more lingering on
cheerleading, FOCs, sing n strum, carrom, Events
everything i wanted and dreams harboured are all fulfilled
nth more to stay on for

all things have to go to an end
and i think as time goes by,
i jus no longer felt the will to carry on the way i was in the past
thus i no longer wanted to interact or mix ard

as people come and go
i start to see the reality of life
many regrets, many lessons learnt
much love and concern received
much tears shed yet also much joy i felt
many fun-loving people i met and shared my life with
i am glad i spent my 3 years in a place that taught me and gave me so much beyond my education
i am glad i made the decision to be in hall 15 blk 72 3 yrs ago
but now i tink it's time to say goodbye

no matter wat,
i want to cherish all this
and the friends that have stayed on with me through the years
i want to hold onto them

i know that in the year ahead
it will be tough for all of us to stay together
but i believe our ties are strong enough to weather the trials ahead
let's not be fair weather friends ok?
:)

to friends who are going on grad trips or jus anywhere overseas,
have fun dears!
cox u know u deserve it after all that hard work
:)

wishing upon a star at...|2:40 PM|

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i really can't believe the exams are over!
it's kinda weird how we always feel that time passes so slowly during exams
and so quickly after exams!
i never ever thot i will survive the exams this sem
omg wat a torture
never studied so hard before esp for 306
am so glad it's over and i really did my very best for it too
:)
now looking forward to sat's trip
but got lotsa stuff to prepare before it
like changing currency, packing my bags, searching for directions to places
and i still have to unpack all the stuff from hostel that i lugged home
am so sick of packing and unpacking
i really do have a lot of stuff :(
but still i miss home
and somehow i really dun miss hostel
i stepped out, not feeling the agony of never going to be back there again
i felt free and happier when i left for home
i guess the reality just haven set in
but i really somewat like a caged bird
finally free of the walls of hall and school
prob cox these few months have really been cooped up in sch n hall
am kinda tired of staying there alr
and today when i went out of home, i felt that woah!
my surroundings, the trees and bus stop, church and many nice nice places near my hse are so great
wat is there to complain
when i have a newly opened bubble tea shop, prata shop
market, macs and hair salons all jus opp my house
and my fav amk hub!
hahas
guessed i haven been going ard the neighbourhood for too long
that everything looks different to me
oh wells
jus let me soak in this happy and worry-free env before i start missin hall
hahas
so far i jus miss having steamboat and watching tv in hall
hahas

wishing upon a star at...|2:26 PM|

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Sunday, May 02, 2010

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i know i should not be blogging now
esp since 306 exam is like 3 days away
and i have been freaking out for it ever since i started studying Accountancy
but this time i am gonna do my very best with my regrets
have been studying very very hard
never studied so hard before in the entire 3 years
and i am gonna conquer it!
hahas

so excited abt my after exam plans
if everything goes well

let's see
May
5th - 306 exam! move out of my 2nd home (hostel)
7th - outing with NANAs!
8th to 14th - taiwan!
15th - church cep chalet + 72 chalet

june - gonna be a guinea pig for my hairdresser!
for her hair cutting exam (21st) and highlight + dye exam (28th or 29th)
so scary!!!
tink she is gonna make my hair red with gold highlights

July
29th - convocation!

Aug
15th to 22nd - europe with mummy!
23rd - to Deloitte!

ohhhs i wan to do lotsa stuff
1) kbox! (i really miss this qt abit sudd)
2) watch movies!
3) go a short trip with muffins! (anywhere! cox i somehow really miss them sudd)
4) volunteer at some place
5) vacation job! (hopefully sth fun like tourism)

wishing upon a star at...|2:01 PM|

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