had my hair dyed red with fiery red highlightsi totally look like a lian nowbut at least it's sth differentnow is the time to go the wild look!hahastink my parents will really get a fright when they see me latergoshi am pretty shocked when i saw myself tooit kinda looks like those extensionskinda hope the red will fade so that it wun look so jarringanw tink today's rui jie's surgeryprays tt he will be up and running around soonand be happy with his new lookdo take care!
happy~
i passed my basic theory test with full marks!
woohoo!
hahas was shaking like a leaf after my theory trial test
cox i failed it
and i din study much for the test
plus kor kor kept saying i know nuts about theory since i hardly touched the book
so i mugged hard during the one hour break i had before i took my actual test
luckily i passed! thank god! i said a little prayer to him before i did it
hahas
so anw i enrolled into driving sch!
it's so costly!
booked my final theory test and 11 practical lessons for the entire mth of july!
i am gonna chiong my way through!
hopefully can get my license by aug before starting work
but heard tt it is highly impossible to do so in 2 months
anw i am going for manual, although my dad totally tinks i wun make it on first attempt and prob give up halfway
i do hate people daring me, so i am gonna challenge myself
pray for me yea
anw the past weekend was really hectic
hardly had the time to slack and rest at home
it was rushing from yec meeting at kb cc to lunch at amk hub to youth meeting at church then dinner at amk hub with parents
sun was not any better
church from 8 plus to 1 plus, lunch then tract distribution till abt 2.30pm and when i thot i could stay home to study for the test, was called out to join my parents at taka to get a new gown for jie jie's wedding since they thot the one i got was too informal
sighz not as if i getting married ma
anw i won the bet i had with guojun!
my brilliant germany won!
:)
waiting for the match of brazil n chile to start! :)
tml gonna dye my hair, am qt excited!
i duno if u call it a coincidence onot
but i sudd thought of the person i met 2 years ago
with this random thot of where is this person now
and could he be working in deloitte?
could he be going for the deloitte audit off-peak party?
and i went to check facebook
and oh my gosh! he is really in deloitte!
even the way we met was so drama
coincidental i can say
what are the chances of me asking directions in ntu?
and esp asking someone who is not even from ntu
all these coincidences freak me out a little
but i really doubt he will rmb me hahas
oh wells random ramblings for the day....
我會一直記得
替你叫了计程车 是最後一次了
站在路边我剩下空壳
接下来你的剧本改写了
抽掉我的角色
我心里是清楚的 并不是甚麽末日
生活还是必须继续的
遗憾是肯定会有一点的
舍不得又如何
我会一直记得 你眼中的曲折
用多少时间换来普通朋友的资格
再坚持的乘客 到站了就要下车
就算我有多麽舍不得
你我记忆的存摺 细节不会增加了
爱过已经是非常难得
虽然未来谁都无法预测
希望你能快乐
我会一直记得 你眼中的曲折
用多少时间换来普通朋友的资格
再坚持的乘客 到站了就要下车
就算我有多麽舍不得
我会一直记得 你眼中的曲折
用多少时间换来普通朋友的资格
再坚持的乘客 到站了就要下车
就算我有多麽舍不得
不管我有多麽舍不得
sometimes i forget u are no longer with me
sometimes u make me miss my grandma more
maybe some losses are similiar
yest i went for a job interview at werkz photography
hahas the boss very nice
they even took some random shots for me against different backgrounds
using their super duper ex $50,000 dslr camera
to let me see the diff effects
hopefully will get the job!
hahas
i am bored at home!
ask me out!
hahas
何維健 变化
海变成陆地
快乐的能变成悲剧
那么爱 会不会变成了麻痹
沙变成天梯
丑陋的能变成美丽
那么你 会不会变成我的仇敌
我不是挑剔
可怕的变局
随时都在背后偷袭
时间会把我把你
都变成了灰烬
从勇气 变距离
没有人能够保证
永远在一起
时间会把我把你
都变成了回忆
那时候 有没有
一个不会为时间
而变化的你
海变成陆地
快乐的能变成悲剧
那么爱 会不会变成了麻痹
沙变成天梯
丑陋的能变成美丽
那么你 会不会变成我的仇敌
我不是挑剔
可怕的变局
随时都在背后偷袭
时间会把我把你
都变成了灰烬
从勇气 变距离
没有人能够保证
永远在一起
时间会把我把你
都变成了回忆
那时候 有没有
一个不会为时间
而变化的你
分开追逐著相聚
辛酸渴望著甜蜜
我们都是一样
穷得只剩下空虚
我买不起
我不确定
绝望谷底有没有奇迹
时间会把我把你都变成了灰烬
从勇气 变距离
不变的幸福
只是 一种距离
时间会把我把你都变成了回忆
那时候 有没有
一个是你爱我我爱你最完美的结局
还是
我变成了你最想忘记的回忆
another exciting match from slovenia and united states!
:)
ending score: 2-2
oh mans the US did fight quite hard
had a horrid nightmare yest night!
about jie jie's wedding day
was taunted and teased through out
woke up very scared
the nightmare lasted very long cox i slept for so long
totally missed out all 3 matches yest
:(
kor kor say i dun study at all for the driving theory test
sighz
i do hate picking up that book
it's so boring!
and he wonders how i am gonna pass it
i wonder too...
am so happy!
or rather super hyped up
ever since i've watched like the most exciting matches so far
having the swiss score a goal against and best of all, winnning the spain is so cool!
esp love it when the underdogs win the game
the game is so much more interesting to watch when u see the slated to win team having to fight so hard to get a goal in
dun like it when the weaker teams play against the stronger teams and simply wait to lose the game cox they know they are not so good compared to their opponents
anw kudos to the swiss!
oh and the north koreans too
even though they din win the opponent, which i forgot who was it, shld be brazil
but at least they put up a good fight and even managed to get a goal in
hahas
i sound like some soccer fan rite?
oh mans
today met up with juliana!
to watch a movie (Letters to Juliet)
cox she won free passes to the preview
thot it was gonna be some cliche romance story
but it sure was more than that
love the plot and also the fact it really made the whole crowd laugh lots
so it's a great movie!
:)
the female protagonist in the story said the words 'what' and 'if' becomes very powerful when put together as a phrase
what if?
what if the love u felt then was true?
will it still be true now, 50 years later?
she also said when u no longer mind being apart from each other, it probably means there is something wrong about the relationship
having a spiltting headache
yet i can't get to sleep
sighz agonising
caught up in the world cup fever
i am such a fanatic!
hahas
am suddenly reading the sports section all of a sudden
and faithfully catching almost all of the 10pm and 2.30am matches
which prob explains why i never seem to get completely well
gotten kinda used to being sick after a while
hahs
still eating all my heaty stuff and cold drinks
today finally went out with mummy to enjoy the GSS!
hahs
haven been out shopping since dunno when
been pretty much cooped up at home all this while
most of our shopping have been pretty much worrying abt what to wear for jie jie's upcoming wedding
so the aim today was to get my evening dress for the wedding
since jie jie has settled all the bridesmaids' day dresses alr
for the first time in my life, i tried on like almost 20 over dresses just in 1 shop
and had completely personal attention from the salesperson for like 45mins?
so traumatised with trying clothes
considering how much i hate trying clothes
anw reward of the day: 2 dresses for $68 :)
one for the wedding and one for work
satisfied and happy!
mummy got her dkny watch too!
sighz this wedding is making us all having to get so much new stuff
new furniture (ceiling fan and bedroom set), new clothes, shoes etc..
oh wells what to do
this is what i have personally nicknamed as the "possibly only wedding for my family in the next 5 years to come"
considering the happily single and available swinging bachelor brother of mine and me, who is totally not considering marriage any time soon
so of cox it must be welcomed in great fanfare
oh man in a few hours time
is the match of brazil vs north korea
wondering whether to watch it
hmmm
my brother says i am moulding at home
i suppose he is right
everyday makes no difference to me
nothing special happens
i sleep more than half my day away
the only things i do is watch tv and videos online, read the newspapers and eat
but i feel so tired everyday still
have been sick sick sick
being sick makes me feel weak
feel insecure, feel alone
been feeling quite low recently
all out-of-sorts
and the nightmares i have these 2 nights doesn't help too
i understood something recently that
the reason why people find it so hard to let go
is because u know u still care about the person but yet still need to do so
it's so much easier if u wan to get over someone who has let u down or no longer love u
cox in that case, there is nothing left for u to hold onto
i think i must be the world's most rebellious child of god
for most of my life, i ran away from him
i thought i could live my life without him
by pursuing all worldly pleasures
but i was never happy
deep down, i always envied those with a more vibrant life than me
esp those who were super involved in church
they knew their purpose and were not ashamed to show it
and most importantly, they were happy serving in their respective ministries
yest i stepped back into the YP again
after i ran away from it 6 years ago
i feel so old among the younger kids, even among the young adults grp
sighz
i missed on too much
but then it's never too late right?
i got to know a few others, and i am glad for them
they tried to make me feel more involved, more at home in church
i am trying
one baby step at one time
i regret those years of running away from him
otherwise i would be already like my peers, who are serving in church camps, youth ministries and so on
i know why there was a nagging thought in my head all these years
i just did not have the courage to face it
today's cep abt god's call to service proves that
he never stops calling
and he never stopped calling me back to him
which is why after so many years, i am finally getting closer to him
though it's only a small step now
i hope he will guide me to achieve more for him
i may be a late bloomer
but i will try my best to catch up with the rest
i hope i wun give up trying to fit in halfway and run away again
sometimes i just wish my church is less clique-ish
i know many people are probably puzzled at my decision, esp you
but it's not your fault, really
there are many reasons to it
somehow i finally feel at peace with myself
i dunno if anyone understands how i feel actually
knowing that i can never be perfect
everytime i step into church
i feel as if someone is gonna look through me and tell me
hey stop pretending to be godly, u are not
cox u are not even listening to his words
no one knows how many times i prayed for you to trust in Him
so that we will be unequally yoked no more
but i tink He has other plans for me
it's a nagging thought since a long time ago
but i alwys ignored his words until now
i duno whether these are all my thinking or what he wants for me
but after making this decision, i sorta feel his approval
we are both too headstrong, too opinionated
i somehow feel that our conflicts never seemed to be resolved
rather, they seemed to be just tolerated
and the recent conflict makes me feel that i have confused you for someone of my imagination
i am too stubborn
and this makes me unwilling to accept someone who does not share my view of things
that i view important and necessary to pursue
at this stage of my life
i look ahead but i do not see u with me
i am just not ready to be bound down i guess
i do not want to give any empty hopes
cox i know when a relationship lasts longer, people kinda expects these 2 ppl to go the usual cycle and the long journey in life together
but i can't seem to see us going that path
and hence i chose the easy way out
i am sorry
i just suddenly feel i am not suitable to be in a relationship
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