heard this song recently
it's so sad!
张芸京 – 我不爱你了
爱过的人都有 这样的时刻
无话可说的沉默
没做错什么
是有些感觉变了
在心中拉扯
从遇见你 在一起 笑过爱过争吵过
当初的爱究竟 都藏到哪去了
曾经说好了永远一起
要摘下最远的星星
被你拥抱的幸福还温暖着我 oh~
你曾那样笃定爱着我
才让现在的我们
不忍心说出口
我不爱你了 ho~
当关心变成啰唆
当眼泪变成懦弱
说我爱你改变不了什么
至少曾浓烈爱过
这件事是没有人能否定的
(笃定爱着我 现在的我 一错再错)
你曾那样笃定爱着我
只是现在的自己
不该一错再错
我不爱你了 ho~
tired!
although i feel super stressed abt the days to come
cox my schedule is packed
and keep hearing horror stories abt the super busy peak period
i dunwan to have dark eye bags n rings
i alr have very bad ones!
the timesheet reporting and the many rules and regulations are bogging me down
i am super confused hearing all abt them
sudd i feel being in a big company does have its cons too
there are too much red tape and too many departments
or maybe it's cox it's an audit company so need to comply with many independence rules set by the accounting authorities
sighz
i hope i'll catch up in time and get used to the procedures
but until now, i really do like my company and the ppl inside
or at least those fellow orientation grpmates i have met so far
in fact i would always forget that they are my colleagues
i consider them more of friends
though we are not super duper close yet
but i feel qt comfortable with most of them
they are all qt nice
can talk and joke ard
it feels like being in sch once more
doing elearning and training together
chatting on our office communicator which works like msn ahhas
and using facebook non-stop during the precious lunch hour, adding each other as frens
cox after lunch, we can't access fb hahas
hahas must cherish this time before we are separated to do our different engagements in our different departments
next week, we'll start core training
tink there is gonna be some sort of simulation of an audit engagement
sounds intensive and really scary!
have to do some readings before going
and plus haven finish my elearning
so have to do some work during the weekends :( boohoo!
and i have eaten a grand total of 3 times of ice cream out of 5 days at work
hahas
this week is ice cream week from 21st to 25th aug
so got this freezer containing ice cream on sticks which will be opened during lunch hour
plus fri is supposed to be free fruit day which somehow got converted to ice cream day too
ahhas
but fri's ice cream was different in the way that a small ice cream stall was set up
and the uncle n auntie served the blocks of ice cream with either waffle biscuit or bread or ice cream in a cup
cool rites!
totally like those roadside kind
love it!
there was mocha chip, chocolate, chocolate chip as well as ripple flavours!
:)
we are eating monsters!
we spend most of our time eating!
oh gosh
my muffins are like totally erupting alr!!!
:(
so great to hang out with muffins at vivo today!
kinda feel am back to sch days
hahas
no need to be worried abt any image when with them
unlike with colleagues who i am still not too familiar with, so may sometimes look too enthu to know them or too nonchalent abt things, will be afraid to spoil their impression of me
somehow wished we could stay out longer and just talk
never having an awkward moments, rather they are more like moments of time when we just sit in silence and enjoy the comforting silence and each other's company
my feet is hurting after the last few days of tottering ard in heels
they make me feel super duper tall and confident
though comfortable,
they still cause great discomfort cox they are quite high for me
:(
but vainness still overrules all pain
no pain, no gain
today finally completed my elearning
eyes very pain alr after starin at the com the entire day
wonder what is gonna be the program for tml
first day of work today!
it totally felt more like first day of sch
other than the fact that we all looked like g2000 models and totted ard in heels and ties
we received our staff passes, sat thru many HOD (head of depts) talks, played with our 2nd hand laptops, quietly did our e-learning
love the fact that our training room is just beside the pantry
so i kept drinking tea and catching snips of the tv broadcasting YOG games all day long
sighs who ask us to be YOG sponsor
but the pantry is like a hustle of activity during lunchtime
like some meeting place for most ppl
so got to see some seniors there
i saw si yang too!today is free ice cream day! so we received nestle ice cream after we came back from lunch at amoy street market
they gave us old chang kee for afternoon tea
so practically sat at the training room the whole day and listen to talks and eat
hahas
am growing fat
din get to most of the ppl
but my training grp is the smallest among all intakes
only like 40 plus of us
we all come from mostly audit dept, but different grps
most of the ppl i talked to today were those i alr knew
we have this little small all girls clique
hahas
tml onward is more talks and elearning!
heard there is this mooncake samping from marriot hotel
looking forward to free fruit day on friday!
u seem to be moving on
shld be happy for ya
but ....
selfish me
it feels so strange to me
but i feel for her
i really do
i feel like reaching out to her to comfort her
but i am in no position to
i mean we're not exactly super close in the first place
but reading her blog pains me
her sadness just transcends to me
yet i dunno y i feel that way
i just wish she will be strong ba
i wondered if i have hurt someone the way she was hurt too
mon is the first step into the working world
having a mixture of feelings
excited yet nervous
a sense of dread too
kinda like a impending death sentence
ahhas
where i will not see the light of day
oh wells... better than lazing ard at home i guess
oh gosh!
am happy!
cox finally my pay increased to the same as the other big 4 companies' people
okies la, only $100 more
but better than nth
hahas
and got more leave (increased from 15 to 18 days) and medical benefits (from $300 to $500 per yr) too!
yays!
anw i am back from hk!
i love disneyland
and minnie is my fav character!
she is so sweet-looking!
and i renewed my love for burberry!
i am gonna save up for it!!
mummy calls it an "auntie" brand
but i tink it's gorgeous
everytime i pass by the shop at the airport, i cant help but gasp at the bags in there
awww....
sunday is coming! gonna be up, up and away for a while!
:)
hopefully can get lotsa stuff
been hearing so much from relatives and friends who have been there
no longer need to be super envious of them le!
woohoos!
wana get more working clothes esp dresses! and a bag for work!
eat lotsa dim sum esp!!
getting away for a while is good
been feeling abit lacking in love and concern
sighz all the withdrawal symptoms of being single
need to have more independence and stop being so needy of others
but sometimes it's really hard not to feel lonely wat
working will occupy more of my time, maybe then i will feel more preoccupied and stop thinking abt all the stuff that have already happened
anw the newspaper mentioned super low figures of marriages in recent years
the govt is actually having some campaign to help singles have more opportunities in expanding their social circles
kinda wondered if i will end up in engaging a dating agency in the future too
oh gosh so scary
even the govt wans a foot into the picture of matchmaking
my dear sis is ROMed as well as married already
kinda weird now
that i am really gonna be slping alone alr
sighz
was feeling kinda lonely
gonna miss all those pillow talks and whining to my sis
suddenly the bed seems huge
in the past, i used to complain abt how irritating my sis
how she will take up a huge part of my bed
take a whole lot of time in the toilet
having late night phone calls with her fiance
oh mans it's weird to say this
but i miss her already
anyhow am gonna wish and pray for her that she will have a blissful marriage
and i hope that i will have a little niece or nephew to play with soon!
so excited!
hahas
her happiness makes me so envious!
i suddenly feel like getting married too!
ahhas
it was horrible
many ppl at the wedding started asking me when is mine?
like as if i at marriageable age liddat
the wedding day itself was super tiring
had to be a jie mei in the morn while helping my parents serve the guests at home
when the guests left, had only 1 hour to remove make up, bathe and then put up make up again for the night
oh gosh
had to man the reception the entire time
missed her matrimony ceremony cox i was out waiting for latecomers
as well as the 1st part of her march-in
sianz
was so tired that i could hardly eat
am glad it's over and done with
suddenly realised only got less than 2 weeks till start of work
am gonna enjoy my hk trip! from 15th to 18th aug
my mom's grad gift to me!
hahas
almost done with my driving lessons soon!
left with abt 3 more subjects to go!
then can book the test le
prob gonnna be in early oct
anw my fam went to serangoon broadway to take the fam portrait last friday!
we were qt excited!
ahhas
can't wait to see the samples!
ken said he saw a glipse of them alr!
hahas
my hopes are dashed
but kinda expected la, it was just a silly thought
was just keeping my hopes up
being unrealistic just for a while
finally some closure to it wells.
driving lessons were bad
shall not comment on it further
these 2 weeks will be crazy with 2 lessons a day
but i shall perservere!
at times, i am envious of people ard me who seemed to be so absorbed in their own happiness
but at the same time, i wonder whether their happiness is only surface-deep and whether it will last
okies i guess i am being a skeptic
but still, if time shows that they belong tog forever, i wish them all the best
jie jie's impending wedding makes me feel like getting married too!
hahas
well i'll have to wait long long!
hahas
i am still waiting for my own Mr Right!
i hope my friends will find theirs soon too!
:)
take care muffin knight!
the few months will be over real quick
and we look forward to ya returning to our kingdom again!
:)
i am absolutely crazy about food more than ever recently
anw am gonna recommend this pack of chocolate cookies from NTUC
they are having this promotional price of 2 packs for $4.95
but usual price of $3.50 per pack
and today i trooped down to NTUC all excited to get my hands on my new-found love
but there was only 1 pack left!
argh!
super sadded
anw this pack of super ordinary looking cookies
which have absolutely no brand
but the pack just has the word "chocolate cookies" on top with a picture of 2 mouthwatering cookies
it's a product of netherlands
it is super amazing
cox the cookies are so nice! the chocolate part melts in my mouth
and the cookies are crispy and crunchy
the way i love it!
i tink it's like way better than famous amos
ok maybe i am exaggerating
but it's cheap! and nicE! which totally means alot to a poor little church mouse like me
anw today went out with christine and juliana! met them after YP
we went shukudo at raffles city
then walked to bugis for dessert! my fav mango with grass jelly oooh so refreshing!
lastly to bugis junction to have some shopping for work clothes
the shops close so early!
sighz
have to bashfully admit that my love for food is abit too overwhelming
jie jie bought 6 identical dresses for all the bridesmaids
but i am the only one who complained abt it being too tight!
that totally spells sth wrong abt me rite
oh gosh
gotta watch my food intake alr
one more week to go!
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