argh my A11 calls me princess toh just cox i refuse to go tuas to help him on his job
and i am not even booked on that job
i din noe being called a princess can be so annoying hahs
anw he so mean
he says got someone who worked on uob kay hian wif me say i very smart
but he has his reservations abt it
of cox la
he so smart
everyday i work with him, i feel so stupid
hahhas
he can really drive me to nuts
i feel so dumb!
anw i got booked on uob kay hian agn!
duno whether to b happy onot
at first gt 2 free weeks in jan de then sudd got to go uob
haix
and another a11 wans me to help her on ubaf next wk at suntec
ahhhh i thot i finally got off tt job
hahas
she says i more experienced in it since i did it before in interims
but then luckily my manager say may not have enuff budget
so i mite not be going down
otherwise my free week next week will be gone too!
tomorrow is gonna be a really short day!
only abt 2 hrs cox 11am got new year celeb
with buffet lunch provided, a not too bad lucky draw too!
hope to win the LCD TV/ipod shuffle/digital cam
hahas
:X
anw it was really awkward today
everyone kept teasing us
sighz
i thought after falling down during floorball and during jess' bdae party
and after 2 days of mc and resting at home
i will be all fit and ready to go to work
sighs i am either too clumsy or too suay
fell again on the way to work
like just when walking to the bus stop
maybe am not used to wearing tt pair of heels alr
or maybe my legs are too weak, they gave way
and i fell on my knees again
so now they have huge blue-blacks plus a huge gaping wound with scrapped skin
:(:(:(
i duno how to describe how upset i am with myself
for not taking care of myself
my legs are super ugly now
the wound is totally right on top of the scar i had from night cycling
so it's jus the scar will never go away
i feel super sad
and in pain
:(
so many things happening these days
that i am losing track of time
though they are mostly happy things of cox
hahas
cox it's the xmas season!
sth i really looked forward to for quite awhile now
hahs
thursday and friday was spent doing last minute shopping!
thurs with rj at town area trying to grab xmas gifts while i can
but picky as I can, I can just never feel satisfied with the item enuff to get them for gifts
cox i will feel doubtful as to whether the person will really like it
sighx in the end always end up not getting anyth
it's really a bad habit to think too much!
anw we had tampopo for dinner n gong cha too!
nice nice ramen yums!
xmas eve was spent with ken, joycie n rj
:)
happy shopping hrs spent tog!
though was super tired tottering in my supposedly most comfy heels
thx to ken for lugging ard my super heavy lappie!
hahas
finally bought my denim 'long' shorts n the top i was eyeing for a while
yays!
xmas was spent rushing ard!
from church for service, to northlight sec for floorball then to jess' bdae chalet!
tired!
but first time feel scared
legs gave way as ken would put it 'in a pool of shoes'
and felt that i could not carry my own weight
and all of a sudden i really wished u were there to help me up
but i know things will no longer be the same
but real glad joycie is there to lift me up
:) thx gal!
sorry for making u carry my wt
anw the stayover was qt fun
except that i was dead beat
cannot stay awake
anw am on medical leave for 2 days for today n tomorrow
i really need rest!
ahhh my knees creak like an old granny
sudd got things to look forward to agn!
fri got dept's new year lunch!
yea free food!
muffins nv fail to make me happy
the time spent with them nv seems enuff
i could somehow sarcifice meeting others just to go out with them
they are ppl i could somehow be super chui in front of and nv feel inferior
cox they have been there at my lowest points of my life
and literally know me inside out
evn if our lifes have changed and we may not meet as freq
i know you all have not
yest i was on leave!
cox it was mummy's bdae
yaysie
mumsie, kor and me went to suan thai at kiliney for lunch!
it was great!
was super full aft that
:)
the effects of having not enuff slp and rushing ard on weekends are kicking in alr
i went to work this morn super tired
my eyelids were folded weirdly
cld nt put my eyeliner
hmph
sianz
then felt giddy and weak during work
tempted to take mc tml
sick of work
need a break
cant wait for the xmas holiday to rest and play!
during lunch, i looked so tired tt everyone asked me wat's wrong with me
seng even bought me orange juice with salt cox he says it's good for me
:)
so nice of him!
sighz i wan to go shopping
but i cant gather the energy to do so
it's just weird that my xmas day is super packed and my xmas eve is super empty
ironic
:(
i tink i am super uber selfish
not letting u go properly
not letting u get to know others better
and have fun with them
but reading abt ur plans jus hurts me
sighz wat an irony
stupid me
曲名：亲人 歌手：丁当
别打开 礼物的缎带
最初充满期待 最后都腐败
别打开 午夜的电台
别让情歌反覆再愚弄
而爱 并没有教给我生存
只教我交易虚荣给天真
可是爱 让我们变成陌生人
却变不了更高尚的灵魂
不要吻我 只要抱着我
不要爱我 做我的亲人
把手借我 一天一分钟
做我最亲密的亲人
不是谁的情人 谁的某某某
就算我 全身湿透透
我也不再被谁 牵着鼻子走
如果我 还握住拳头
可能我怕我的梦飞走
而爱 并不如你想的万能
不能让我们不再战争
可是爱 连慈悲也没多慈悲
谁爱越深越容易被牺牲
不要吻我 只要抱着我
不要爱我 做我的亲人
把手借我 一天一分钟
让我还敢做我的梦
做我梦中伟大的微笑的英雄
不要吻我 只要抱着我
不要爱我 做我的亲人
把手借我 一天一分钟
让我还敢做我的梦
做我梦中伟大的微笑的英雄
the weekend was crazy
hahas super packed
fri morn was GFSI dept xmas celeb
we had a fantastic breakfast tog!
slacked from 9am to 1030am
just having toast, coffee, fruits and omelette hahas
free food!
and we placed all our gifts on the table, and looked out for our names on the presents and opened them in anticipation!
hahas though most of the gifts were starbucks tumblers
now we all know why the tumblers at starbucks near our office lobby are out-of-stock!
hahas
fri nite was the xmas exchange among aug batchmates!
it was fun!
finally got to try hotpot culture
the fondue was addictive
glad that there was a reasonable turnout
despite all of us coming tog after work from all over the place
and having to OT
it was great to meet each other esp since we dun get to meet often esp the general audit ppl!
gift exchange was quite interesting, we got to see what each person got for their santees and who their santas were
i know what u feel towards me
unfortunately i can't reciprocate
sorry!
but i really love the gift!
my own hello kitty calculator!
thx for the effort u put in to look for it all over the shopping malls
we had a long talk and i really tink u'll be a great fren
sat was youth meeting at 3pm then followed by the kebun bahru cc event for the elderly in the evening
i served food for the first time!
as waitress
it was nice to see everyone soaking in the xmas spirit
:)
then we rushed off to the chalet abt 10pm at downtown east organised by joel and jacq
i din know most of the ppl there
but luckily they were qt friendly
had a hard time stayin awake
it was so interesting to see how we all had different professions
and listening to their struggles with difficult ppl in their lives is fascinating
stayed over at the chalet till morn
then morn was up very early
we cabbed back to church for morning worship then breakfast and back for cep
went home to slp
dinner was mummy's and ma ma's bdae celeb at a nice nice restaurant
got yummy suckling pig!!!
:):)
the food was great!
and paid for by my siblings, uncle and me
first time chipping in for the meal
gosh reminds me that i am old alr
hahas
tiring weekend!!
today i suffer the consequences of it
despite being unassigned and hardly doing anyth the entire day
i felt so tired still!
luckily tml i am on leave
to acc mummy for her bdae!
yays!
the coming xmas day will be a busy day!
ahh
give me strength and energy and make my life fulfilling and satisfying to thee!
i must have lost the strong love i felt along the way
as i read the letters of old
i felt as if i was reading someone else's love letters
some of it i no longer understood, the symbols and the codes already rusty
i miss the old times we had together
the love that was bursting at its seams that was expressed through those simple words
i cried as i read
and i wondered what happened to me, what happened to that love i felt
did i give it up too easily
i once said u were the bai fen bai bf
u still are.
but maybe just no longer mine to keep.
i am not sure if u rmb those words u said
every relationship is like a stone carved with memories
i am sorry that i din cherish the love
i am sorry i din hold onto that faith
i am sorry that we din make our r.s a crafted jewel together
i am sorry that i still broke ur heart in the end.
i tink i forgot to mention
i went to watch rapunzel last sat!
i loved rapunzel since i was a small girl!
she's so pretty and has such beautiful hair!
anw i bought my present for my secret santee already!
he asked for a super big pencilcase
in the end i got him a bodyshop gift set
cox it comes with the toiletries inside
as well as the bag which can double up as a manly n huge enuff pencilcase to dump all the stationery in
just absolutely wat an auditor needs!
:)
hahs
hope he'll like it!
but i wonder who he is!
anw looking forward to fri! cox we are all celebrating xmas tog at hotpot culture!
nv tried the food there before!
i heard there's gonna be choc fondue!
sounds yummy!
i duno why is this all so ironic
you remind me so much of him
or maybe it's all my imagination
cox mummy dun tink so
isn't funny that the harder u try to forget someone and try to move on
ultimately it still catches up with u
and in the end talkin to him keeps reminding me of u once again
but i dun unstd myself
why am i looking at ur photo
and sudd tears come to my eyes
maybe i loved u more than i thot i did
it is really amazing
that every week after i come back from church
i can't help but want to praise you more, love you more and stay in the faith forevermore
thank you for revealing urself more and more to me more and more each day
esp on sundays
i thank you for the precious friends i have met
for their trust in me and honesty in confiding in me
through them, i feel stronger
feel that there ain't anyth i can't go through with you on my side
i really tink the coming week will be the worst i have ever
or maybe the first of many more bad weeks to come
for every week that i am at blackrock
i tink i will age like 1 year
i get super stressed everytime i have to do the audit work for Blackrock
all that mergers make me so confused cox they are having so many changes in operations
and their personnel are mostly overseas so esp hard n troublesome to contact them
super sian
did i mention i am in the christmas mood alr?
i can't wait for it
u noe why?
cox it's the birthday of the most precious and beautiful baby!
no one can ever replace you lord
u brought so many people love and hope!
:)
anw i asked my fren where he was going this sat
then he said xmas shopping!
then i was thinking why wld a guy enjoy doing tt?
then he said i love christmas!
those simple 3 words really touched my heart!!
"i love christmas!"
so simple yet so true!
was very touched by his genuiness when he said it
i ought to adopt tt approach too!
so i love christmas, everyone!
:)
do watever u want
just stop lying and pretending
and going against ur words
i am so stressed!
arghhhh
i had a good break during my leave days!
just the thing i needed before peak is starting on 27th dec
was really tired and restless but now i feel better!
i wished it was longer though
but i gotta save up leave days for next year
i wana go overseas!
:)
thurs was spent slacking at home and watching a jap drama
been a long time since i had time to do that
just doing nth but laugh at the screen :X
fri was hectic
facial in the morn
followed by movie and lunch wif rj
and dinner and drinks with grp 15 peeps
been a long time since i met them
it was seng's bdae so i felt i had to give face
never drank so much before
went home soooo tired and sleepy
could not even have the energy to bathe
eeeeewww
was forced to drink lotsa weird stuff mixed tog
sighz
but they were qt nice la, they knew i cld not drink
so they tried to help me with some of the drinks
bday boy's requests cannot be rejected, wat to do?
really tired now
had a long day in church
worship, then cep and then singing practice for the xmas celeb for the elderly org by kebun baru cc and my church
was struggling to stay awake
hey dear, u are a superwoman
but it doesn't mean u have to be strong all the time
sighz church friends all facing their own problems
jiayous!
fun and busy day!!
lotsa retail therapy and simply slacking ard
really feel like i am back in secondary sch again
i feel that everyday i am not working, i will feel a need to dress down alot, like there is this need to remove all burdens and facade, go without makeup and simply look very chui
makes me feel more relaxed and unknown to anyone
no need to look professional or act like i know everyth hahas
anw today was shopping with jor and wei!
:)
bought lotsa stuff!
did my sums jus now
spent close to 70 bucks for food and clothes
bought a blazer, a dress that is totally the same as wei's, a tube and hairbands
happy!
also looked at lotsa pretty stuff
i tink i wana get a maxi dress too!
but i am too short!
very tempted to get the black pants
but can't bear to spend
but anw very happy i finally got a puffy blazer!
it's so hard to find one that fits me!
the one that i got off the online blogspot was too baggy on me
:(
yays!
being on leave makes me throw all my burdens awy!
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