SoLiLoQuy

Thursday, March 31, 2011

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realised that i get stressed very easily
i am quite hard on myself
and i give myself alot of targets and expectations to meet
often pushing myself to the limit
jus like today
if it weren't for the fact tt my stomach hurts and i was afraid of gettin gastric pains again like the previous few times, i prob wun go and have dinner with frens
need to change this habit
yet i kinda tink this habit makes me more suitable for audit

anw got quite pissed with my colleague today
jus feel tt he was quite inconsiderate to another colleague, jus cox he doesnt like the food that we packed for him, doesn't mean he can be so unappreciative and throw his unwanted vegetables on another person's plate
we all know he's a very picky eater
but his behaviour today jus doesn't leave a very good impression

tireedddd
this week have been having loads of unhealthy food
feeling abit overwhelmed alr
mon: soup spoon
tues: macs
wed: mos burger
thurs: soup spoon
faints!
not to forget the 2 times i had bubble tea this week (gong cha and eskimo)
and i jus had koi on sun nite!
oh noooooooo
gona grow fatttt
and very unhealthy!!!!
:(

wishing upon a star at...|11:40 PM|

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Sunday, March 27, 2011

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i love having honest talks with you
i alws felt that you are one person i feel the most comfortable talking to regardless of the time of the day

in the past when we were still tog
i used to wish we have all the time in the world to talk to each other all day long and never ever have to worry abt having sch the next day and hence having to wake up early
i rmb how i used to disturb u all the time to stay awake to chat with me
i always have endless things to tell you
tt's the way i wanted my life to be
to have you to accompany me all my life

and despite the fact tt we broke up
i loved how we still can talk abt anyth and absolutely everyth

it disappoints me tt u din tell me abt tt issue till now
but it's all alright
i alr knew it all along
somehow my instincts were right afterall

maybe we've grown up
but something inside me tells me tt both of us have changed
even if we get back tog
we'll never be the same you and me once more
i'll no longer be as fun loving as i used to be
and you'll no longer be willing to spend all ur time with me
we've grown used to being apart and leading our own lives
we need our own freedom
and i cherish how much we've grown on our own being apart

but it worries me tt u mentioned tt if one of us get attached
our now very comfortable frenship will get shaken
we may not be able to hang out with each other like we are right now

but i am happy with where we are right now

i duno wat i am waiting for
but there is something inside me is wishing someth exciting will happen to me
jus need sth to jolt my boring life

anw today i signed up for church camp and women's retreat alr!

i love this verse from the song: turn your eyes upon jesus and the things of earth will become strangely dim

wishing upon a star at...|11:33 PM|

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Saturday, March 26, 2011

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tink my weekends are qt sian
hahas
am kinda bored
ask me out!

stuff in my head
need to clear them out!!

i wish i wish i'll have a direction of where next to head
i kinda feel v stagnant now

wishing upon a star at...|11:31 PM|

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woo so envious of fan fan and hei ren
they're so sweet tog!
was watching kang xi
they're getting married after 10 years of courtship
and he act converted to christianity for her
oh man
and she also so nice to him
alwas watch NBA with him
love watching sweet and genuine couples like them
wish them all the best!

wishing upon a star at...|2:27 PM|

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Monday, March 21, 2011

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i am grateful for my jiemei gang
they are simply not jus colleagues
they are my pillars of support
everytime i feel terrible at work
i lose the emo-ness once i meet them during lunchtime
lunch never seems long enuff
and even though we hardly work on engagements tog,
we still keep each other updated abt the ups and downs of each engagements
love them to the max!
nelson, li ji, huey ying, jeanie, yi ping and kelvin! muackz!
:)

anw did soft rebond and treatment!
after so long of procasination!
hahahs
yays!
love my hair now!
it really was a very huge burden to me before
everytime i walked past a mirror or see my reflection in shop windows
i get so frustrated
cox my hair is so messy
and the ends are sticking out in all directions
i always envied those who have hair tt seem so obedient
anw now i noe the answer to obtain their type of hair
ahahs
:)
i realised spurgling on myself really cheers me!!!
anw i bought more dresses from a blogshop!!
been spending alot recently
ought to cut down
tell myself tt everyday
but nth seem to change
hahas

am really happy serving the lord
helping out with the women's/men's retreat coming up in apr
never been to church camp before
and this time i hope to go with rina and selene to the church camp in jun

as well as many exciting events coming up
and maybe jiemei's overseas trip in jul
and mummy's and my europe trip in aug
with the exciting promotion in end june with pay raise
i tink looking forward seems a good thing for me!!!
:D

i only hope i have enuff money to do so many things!

wishing upon a star at...|9:13 PM|

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Sunday, March 13, 2011

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i tink i always handle things wrongly
what was meant to be encouraging to myself ended up offending others

sometimes i wonder whether i shld stick so strongly to my stand
cox in the end it seems to hurt everyone
or cause ppl to tink tt christians are picky and stuck up
cox even wen i tried to explain to my frens,
i'm afraid their impressions will be affected by it

maybe i was living in self denial
i kept wishing tt the situation will change
i kept thinking tt since other ppl's r.s problems can be solved
so why can't mine?
but it jus ain't as easy as theirs
i got to admit, it's not gonna disappear overnight
and now tt i finally really noe wat i wan, i can't run away and deny it anymore
so in any case, nth is gonna change for now
but sometimes i still hope tt in the future and as time passes by,
maybe we'll grow up
and somehow things will work out someday

ks wrote me a long long fb msg yest nite
i finally knew wat he wrote on hardware zone forum
he posted on the issue of “Can religion be an obstacle in a relationship btw 2 parties?”
and invited discussion on the forum
i felt happy cox he made an effort to unstd my POV
even though i know we'll never be tog as a couple
but i am glad tt i can influence my fren to unstd where i am coming from

was feeling abit down today
din go to church
i noe his words will revive my soul
but there is jus sth weighing me down inside

wishing upon a star at...|11:22 AM|

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Saturday, March 12, 2011

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Because you are blue, my father sees red
Because i am red, i am feeling blue
how apt!

:(
it was my fault from the start
i love the article below
cox it clarifies all my issues
sighz

http://www.titusinstitute.com/datingbible/godswillmarriage.php

i had 16 review notes for my workpaper
so chui!

wishing upon a star at...|12:25 PM|

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Saturday, March 05, 2011

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i am seriously a dumb dumb!
i reallly cant do my own work
to tie the trial balance, ryan (my a11) had to totally work on my lappie while i just watch n stare
and ask him stupid questions
i kept interrupting his work and disrupting him till i tink he is seriously super irritated with me
but he's simply too nice to complain
no wonder he tinks i am a vase
really no contribution to the progress of the job at all
i feel so terrible
this is one job i always feel like a loser
like a burden to the team

i wonder how i will cope when i become a11 next year for this job
sighz

in the end, he left earlier
when he leave alr, he completed like more than half of my work
but i still ended up spending like 3 over hours OT just to complete the rest
though it is supp to be minimal
but still feel very happy cox i managed to finish it
i jus wish i am less dependent on him
i tink one day he is really gonna flare at me

anw on a happier note
was supp to meet church gals after work at abt 7pm
by the time i met them, it was alr almost 9pm
but was still very happy to sit there n eat n chat with them
they simply are very funny and nice ppl!
hahas

the weekend will be packed with activities!
yays
i love weekends
they are what i look forward to all week
ever since i started work
weekends have become super duper precious!

wishing upon a star at...|12:11 AM|

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