SoLiLoQuy

Wednesday, June 29, 2011

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i am onto retail therapy!
within less than half an hr, bought and transferred payment for 1 maxi skirt which can double as a dress, 1 tube dress and a top!
i am sucha shopaholic!
gave myself an excuse to shop since payday is today!
hahas
but the thing is i'm already having no savings for last month and this month due to the CPA exam fees and the church camp fees
ahhhhhh
but i cannot resist my shopping temptation
cox alot of new collection launches today!
yippeee!
:)
shopping makes me happy!
now i totally unstd hw suez alwys cant wait to get her hands on the clothes she buy online hehe
i am awaiting my own self-bought pressieS!
hahas

i will do all things to make myself happy!
gorging myself with happy food, buying new clothes, running to vent my frustration
i jus wan to find back myself agn

i dunwan u to be upset with me
i noe i disappointed u agn
am sorry
i jus dunwan to stir up more shit

wishing upon a star at...|10:07 PM|

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Tuesday, June 28, 2011

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我們都傻
詞曲:陳威全
演唱:楊丞琳

計算著為你流下了多少眼淚
就代表又對我的心撒了多少謊
但每次我都選擇選擇相信
相信你是愛我的
倔強的以為我真的能改變妳
看妳裝無辜的眼神我很窒息
難道妳沒有看見看見我對妳的好
還是妳忘了那些數不清的愛情軌跡
你說我傻傻在愛上只懂愛自己的人
我說你傻傻在愛她你的眼睛騙不了人
我們都傻傻在為一段沒有未來的愛情付出
還在期待會有奇蹟出現
你說我傻傻在愛上沒有感情的分身
我說你傻傻在愛她就固執的奮不顧身
我們都傻傻在寧願被犧牲也不願放棄天真
還在期待會有奇蹟出現

我覺得自己好沒用
常常守不住握在手裡的東西
所以一旦失去了
我也只能認輸只能後悔一點辦法都沒有

wishing upon a star at...|1:42 PM|

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on mc today
havin flu and sorethroat

the weather matches my mood
gloomy and dark

walking in the rain
i do not know the diff between the raindrops and the tears falling inside of me

have u really given up on us?

wishing upon a star at...|11:51 AM|

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Monday, June 27, 2011

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took this off facebook:

we’re different in many ways, so we try a little more each day.
we're close as friends but a little more, so we love more day to day.

wishing upon a star at...|11:50 AM|

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Sunday, June 26, 2011

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to love someone requires strength
but to let someone u love go requires courage
and to do this time after time again is so difficult
i dun tink i have the ability to do so this time

it has only been less than 24hrs
and i alr miss u
i feel dumb
that u are having lotsa fun over there
yet i am here feeling miserable

my throat hurts
i feel tt i am falling sick.

wishing upon a star at...|9:11 PM|

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my church fren says i am totally not myself today
pls tell me hw to behave
inside of me, i keep thinking abt whether i am making the right decision
i keep telling myself tt if it's meant to be, then it's meant to be
but it hurts

this is not what i want
but this is for the best for now

wishing upon a star at...|2:23 PM|

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Sunday, June 19, 2011

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church camp at cameron highlands was so rewarding!
felt renewed and nourished by the word
a time away from the world and time alone with God has taught me much
and changed my mindset towards things
met many new people too

went for a forest hike
9km up the mountain on a road track
then we tried a forest trail to go down the mountain, went trudging through mud, trees and branches
so scary and chilly
luckily had some guys to give us a hand wenever the trail was tricky
never used my arm and leg muscles so much ever since cheer
am aching all over now
my shoes and limbs were caked with mud when i was done
definitely a memorable experience
am awed by God's creation
the majestic greenness of the mountains and the blueness of the beautiful sky coupled with the refreshing cold breeze is just a wonderful sight
i can't help but am amazed at how wonderful he is

but now i am back
i feel that i am thrown back into reality again
i find it a struggle to apply those concepts into life
i am so stubborn
argh
hate it that my dad refuses to give in to me
annoying
hate it that once i come back, i create trouble for my friends
i am jus too quarrelsome

every spiritual union is a blessing from god
let me learn patience frm this and wait upon the lord for his answer

during the workshops, i obtained the realisation of how God worked in my life all these while
"Return to God, and he will return to you"
i realised how he pursued me with such fervent passion
and yet i ignored him
how he used trials to draw me closer to him

i have agreed to join the church camp committee for 2012
bcox i wan to serve him with joy
and to enable others to reap much from the camp as well

it's amazing to be pursued by an everlasting love
all things appear strangely dim as compared to his love

wishing upon a star at...|7:46 PM|

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Saturday, June 11, 2011

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there seems to be much i will do for you
but yet so little u can do for me
though the things i do seem to be so easy and mundane
but bcox they are things i will never did before and always put off doing for others
they are significant at least in my eyes
i hope that they mean sth to u too

yest nite was TCC 1 for 1 with willy n rj
so worth it!
then was timbre with muffins!
finally got to go timbre aft so much procastination
i realised that i am a sleepy drinker
when i drink, i will be super sleepy

my rebellious nature is more evident twds u
maybe i jus wanted to prove that i can be independent
bt i still weaken at ur words

will be awy for the next wk
at church camp
i really need this time with God

wishing upon a star at...|6:04 PM|

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Wednesday, June 08, 2011

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we were going on so well
i thot i could even see our future
we neglected the obstacle between us
thinking that as long as we were happy together
it wouldn't matter
but we both knew that it was a nagging issue at the back of our minds
that needed to be resolved
before we can move onto the next stage

i will never unstd why is it so hard for you to say it
i thought if i can do it, why can't u
it bothers me that you care so much

i know this current situation is the best for the both of us
bcox this way, there is no obligations

i have grown tired of waiting
and u have grown tired of trying

i feel a tinge of disappointment
at how we ended up now
i've always thought that to treasure someone is to make sure the r.s will work regardless of the obstacles or is it as what u think as stubbornness and obstinacy

i can only hope for the best
but where do we go from now on?

if u believe that once u are settled, u can come back for me
then isit really gona be that simple

when u turn back for me, will i still be there waiting for you?
or will i have moved on?
i have no answer

appearances is all that is important
i only need to appear happy in front of u and the others

the office pressures are caving in onto me
everyone is asking abt us
that sometimes i am so tired

i have not been working at all
since we have nth to do
but all these emotional pressures are taking its toll on me

how do i see u in office everyday
and not be reminded of the pain within

show me that you care by doing what u ought to do as soon as u can
otherwise i really dun tink i can hold onto u any longer

wishing upon a star at...|8:37 PM|

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Tuesday, June 07, 2011

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the happiness i felt which i thought was sufficient to bring us through
maybe it ain't enough for us
whenever i tink about how u decided that we are not suitable
there is this faint ache within me
that saddens me
i know you're right
that u are
but i thought that if i was able to overlook all of those
then nothing else matters to us

i was always too fast
u're always too slow for me
will 2 parallel lines ever meet?

wishing upon a star at...|9:43 AM|

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