"Love Song For A Savior" (Jars of Clay)
In open fields of wild flowers,
she breathes the air and flies away
She thanks her Jesus for the daises and the roses
in no simple language
Someday she'll understand the meaning of it all
He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close a heartbeat or a song on her lips
Someday she'll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call her and she will come running
and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and she'll pray,
"I want to fall in love with You"
Sitting silent wearing Sunday best
The sermon echoes through the walls
A great salvation through it calls to the people
who stare into nowhere, and can't feel the chains on their souls
He's more than the laughter or the stars in the heavens
As close a heartbeat or a song on our lips
Someday we'll trust Him and learn how to see Him
Someday He'll call us and we will come running
and fall in His arms and the tears will fall down and we'll pray,
"I want to fall in love with You"
It seems too easy to call you "Savior",
Not close enough to call you "God"
So as I sit and think of words I can mention
to show my devotion
"I want to fall in love with You"
"my heart beats for You"
love unspoken but felt so deeply
love divine
i want to fall in love with you
i thank you for loving me
bit by bit, step by step
i feel u closer to me
fast and furious or slow and cruising?
i'll never know
this weekend has been the most rewarding and most exciting so far!
:)
really packed to the brim
many a times, i really felt i was gona faint with exhaustion
thurs was JP morgan run
5.6km!
like wat jeanie placed as her album name
we came, we walked/ran, we conquered!!
woohoo!
hahas
now i know my running shoes are really chui!
they gave way halfway
super sian
shows how much i dun exercise
anw it was a really good experience
had a great time walking wif hy, jeanie,kelvin and victor!
we really kept each other company on tt long long walk
:)
loved the scenery and the feeling of accomplishment!
ended the day with dinner at macs!
fri woke up really really early!
the good friday church service was really good!
really felt God' abounding love and amazing grace
love what my speaker said:
the horizontal beam represents God' outstretched love
the vertical beam represents the height of God's holiness
and the cross is where God's love and holiness met!
sucha wonderful and marvellous symbol of our living Saviour's great sarcrifice.
this weekend i refound my love for God once more
and i desire to commune with him more and to love him as my bridegroom
afterwhich we went for the women's retreat at GB campsite
a wonderful experience!
i went there reluctant but came back spiritually refreshed!
the planning experience taught me alot
that it's christ i am serving
not men
that once i set my vow to serve him, i should stay thru till the end
instead of using work as an excuse
and i knew that God was speaking to me
bcox it was no coincidence
that I woke up on sat morn and realised i cld slp no more
and went out to find rina at the benches
sparked off our sharing
and we realised our weaknesses and failure to rely on the Lord
to simply trust n obey
we cried like mad
but tt was the most honest sharing i had in ages
i felt my burdens for the past week fell away
during the retreat, i finally understood the real reason for the retreat
maybe our main purpose was to learn more about desiring god and finding the true beauty in ourselves
but to me, it was more than that
i found the inner peace within me
i needed the time to step away from the world
and jus find rest in him
i was getting tired of being too busy,
i never stopped to rest
in the end i tired myself out
and no matter what i never did, i never seemed to enjoy myself
but this time, i retreated to a place of solace
i learnt that a truely beautiful woman knows who she is and who she belongs to,
she knows God has a purpose for her life and she has a purity of heart
she knows she is loved, not by anyone else, but by a divine man
she glows from within and overflows her love to everyone ard her
to love God is a commandment, not a choice
no one else can fill the empty void within each of us
he made us to worship and to love him
the retreat is only 24 hrs
but it was a fruitful one
i am really glad i was part of the planning committee
afterwhich went home for a nap on sat afternoon
and met the august batch at nabins for the march, apr, may bdaes celebration!
been a long time since we all gathered!
:)
today was church in the morn
and then a really long sleep in the afternoon
been a long time since i slept so soundly
hmmmm
then had dinner with family for jie jie's bdae
what a wonderful weekend!
Sing Along Song lyrics:
I wrote this song it's not too long
cos' I've been thinking 'bout you
I wrote this song maybe I'm wrong
To be caught up about you
Well I dont know what you think 'bout me
Maybe you think nothing at all
But maybe you could just lie to me
And we could be in love you see
Oh it's a singalong song that's not too long
It's when I think about you that I hear songs
And you can singalong maybe if you want to
Cos' baby I wrote this I wrote this for you
I wrote this song it's not too long
Cos' I'm the one who loves you
I wrote this song this can't be wrong
I don't wanna smile without you
Well I just want to make you happy
but maybe you want nothing at all
and how I wish that you're meant to be
forever and a day with me
Oh it's a singalong song that's not too long
It's when I think about you that I hear songs
And you can singalong maybe if you want to
Cos' baby I wrote this I wrote this for you
In everyway you mean more to me
than you'll ever know
girl I'll do my best to show these words are true
and if you'd like to make a song
and be a perfect harmony with me
I'd find the greatest words to sing
so we could write our own romance
Oh it's a singalong song that's not too long
It's when I think about you that I hear songs
And you can singalong maybe if you want to
Cos' baby I wrote this I wrote this for you
Oh it's a singalong song that's not too long
It's when I think about you that I hear songs
And you can singalong maybe if you want to
Cos' baby I wrote this I wrote this for you
Cos' baby I wrote this I wrote this for you
hahas heard this song on yu le ba fen ba!
so thot it was pretty cute :)
:)
saturday!
love the feeling of weekends
though dun have much chance to slp in on wkends anymore
since my body clock is kinda adjusted to the working waking timing hahas
so by ard 9am, will want to wake up alr
anw went for a morning run!
only 1.2km
but at least am putting in effort to do
tryin to get rid of my attitude
of not seeing the need to exercise
i tink as age catches on and my mealtimes get more irregular
i shld start exercising!
hahas
went to Prive with rui jie today!
been wanting to go there since ages
though was abit disappointed cox thot the ambience wld be better
but nevertheless, the food was great! and we took lotsa photos!
:)
love the blue blue sky and the breeziness of the area
everyone seems very relaxed there
rui jie helped me to pick out a pair of nice boat shoes!!
pretty!
yays!
been wanting to get new flats!
i tink i will wan to get another pair of girly ones too
hahas
Celine Dion - I'm Your Angel
No Mountains too high, for you to climb
All you have to do is have some climbing faith, oh yeah
No rivers too wide, for you to make it across
All you have to do is believe it when you pray
And then you will see, the morning will come
And everyday will be bright as the sun
All of your fears cast them on me
I just want you to see...
I'll be your cloud up in the sky
I'll be your shoulder when you cry
I'll hear your voices when you call me
I am your angel
And when all hope is gone, I'm here
No matter how far you are, I'm near
It makes no difference who you are
I am your angel
I'm your angel
I saw the teardrops, and I heard you cry
All you need is time, seek me and you shall find
You have everything and you're still lonely
It doesn't have to be this way, let me show you a better day
And then you will see, the morning will come
And all of your days will be bright as the sun
So all of your fears, just cast them on me
How can I make you see...
I'll be your cloud up in the sky
I'll be your shoulder when you cry
I'll hear your voices when you call me
I am your angel
And when all hope is gone, I'm here
No matter how far you are, I'm near
It makes no difference who you are
I am your angel
I'm your angel
And when it's time to face the storm
I'll be right by your side
Grace will keep up safe and warm
And I know we will survive
And when it seems as if your end is drawing near
Don't you dare give up the fight
Just put your trust beyond the sky...
I'll be your cloud up in the sky
I'll be your shoulder when you cry
I'll hear your voices when you call me
I am your angel
And when all hope is gone, I'm here
No matter how far you are, I'm near
It makes no difference who you are
I am your angel
I'm your angel
I'll be your cloud up in the sky
I'll be your shoulder when you cry
I'll hear your voices when you call me
I am your angel
And when all hope is gone, I'm here
No matter how far you are, I'm near
It makes no difference who you are
I am your angel
I'm your angel
TGIF!
:)
first time in very long time
go home on fri nite for dinner!
yays!
even though no home cooked food
but it's good to be home!
finally drafted the FS today
took qt abit of effort!
tired out....
how do i learn to trust if i do not learn to stop doubting?
today was another shagged day
hahas
had to skip lunch with jiemeis again
second time in a week alr!
sianz
they packed mos for me
for the first time, i felt mos was super nice!
cox i was super hungry!
ate ard 2.30pm
almost felt like i was gonna faint
submission was supposed to 2pm
but we submitted only abt 4.30pm
and that was after alot of rushing ard and effort put in trying to clear review points like mad
was sooo tired!
hopefully tmr onwards will be better!
anw managed to get off early and join the rest for dinner at bergs
and drinking and desserts at kushinbo
:)
happy ending to a day!
hilda is very very stressed!!!!
:( :( :(
i received 8 emails within the time i travelled home from work
reviewed workpapers with many review points to clear!
tomorrow will be another busy and long day!
this week is a disaster!!
the last 2 days busy preparing file for submission to partner
today finally finished the compliance portion
it is esp hard to clear points when i did not do the workpaper in the first place
need to reunderstand the work done and interpret it agn
sighx
yest nite no time to have dinner, all the way till 10pm
today no time to have lunch
think i am either gona grow real fat or grow real thin!
cox i always have my meals late
and my stomach growls like crazy!
daddy keeps nagging at me
cox i always dun eat properly
but cant be helped ma
i really tink my AIC overestimate me
he is super dependent on me!
as in i guess it's no choice
cox i am the only a10 and only person left on the team
cox my a11s are on their other jobs alr
so i have to clear all outstanding work and do all the miscellaneous stuff
but then the lucky thing is that my AIC is very nice
he is quite patient to teach me stuff
and clear my doubts whenever i am blur
hahas
very very saddddd
i noe my work can be done
but i am just so tired
keep on wanting to slp while my aic talks to me
been rushing ard these few weeks
i tink i am overtiring myself
still have church stuff to settle
too lazy to do also
feel more and more confused
soemtimes feel like telling myself "just forget it, give it up"
sometimes i feel that there's hope to carry on
oh wells i wish things were more within my control
it's so hard to determine what others tink or feel
this sense of helplessness i never once had
today went to watch rio!
the movie so nice!!
love the small little birds
feel like cuddling all of them!
hahas
love the soundtrack too!
make me feel like singing to the beat
hahas
all in all, it's a fun and entertaining comedy!
:)
went to candele for dinner!
always wanted to try ever since selene told me the desserts there were good
tried the carbonara and the spagetti with mussels etc
yums!!
had a hard time eating due to my stupid ulcer on the underside of my tongue
it's been troubling me for quite a while
find it very painful to eat anyth
sighzz
anw the food is good!
dessert wise
we took this choc cake thing
which was good
but i was too full to fully appreciate it
maybe next time shld head down agn to try the rest
:)
looked all ard for a perfect gift
but still none in sight
will see how it goes
i wish u noe...
but am afraid it will make or break everything
maybe everything is better like that
anw i tink i love my current life hahas
can do watever i wish and whatever i wan
without having to tell anyone
yays!
i think you understand me quite well
it is amazing how u who have known me for sucha short period of time
read me like a book
maybe even better than others who have known me for ages
in ur fb msg, u mentioned that my bubbly outlook is nothing but a façade to conceal all the unhappiness within me and ‘what ifs’ going on at the back of my head.
i never wanted to admit that to anyone
but i din noe that you cld see through me
and see the inner side of me
i am sorry for the misunderstanding
that you thot i was angry at u
for doing all tt thoughtful gestures
now that i understand the reason behind the flowers
and see that it is your way of showing your concern as a friend
i really appreciate the gift more
in fact, i am very touched that you try so hard to surprise me and give me sth to cheer me up simply bcox u realised that i have been hiding my fears and sadness all these while and wanted to perk me up
thank you!
really.
today morn was spent working hahas
was motivated to finish my work
wanted to go run
but was feeling abit lazy
as usual
met jy for lunch
anw jiayous jy kor!
hopefully ur date tml works out!
then wy and huiying joined us for movie afterwhich
was so surprised to noe that wy is attached!
so happy for him
thot it was an apr fool's joke at first cox they got attached on tt day
hahas
but the kpmg ppl all looked exhausted!
they worked till really very late every nite
but they commented tt my eyebags are huge
sadded!
:(
tml going church!
missed church frens and church!
feel like ages since i went
although i only missed last wk's session
hahas
i miss u, god!
hahas
i never did believe this
but suddenly i feel maybe determination and persistence is not sufficient to touch a gal's heart
no matter how much this person may try to impress you or lavish you with gifts
as long as you have decided that he's not the one
then somehow everything he does will not change anything
life is really ironic
you put one and one together yet they may not be equivalent to two
was embarassed utterly today
had my name announced over the PA system
received an email requesting me to pick up a delivery at the mailing room at 29th floor
walked down full of fear cox i thot i am gona receive some client documents or some complaint letter
luckily i dragged yiping with me
happily asked the mailroom person where is my mail
then to my shock, yiping told me tt bouquet of sunflowers was addressed to me
mixed feelings of embarassment and puzzlement
somehow there is no usual sense of elation at seeing flowers
:(
was totally panicky at where to keep the flowers and prevent anyone from seein them
threw them into my super packed locker
then forgot abt it till the end of the day
sneakily took it out wen jiemei gang abt to go for dinner
but i suay
in the end my AM saw
then some of the remaining snrs and associates saw too
even my colleagues at bowring marsh and marsh (client's place) heard abt it
received a call from them asking me details abt it
fainntsssss
totally so paiseh
having to bring it ard ion orchard cox we're having dinner there
anw had a great dinner!
the colourful xiaolongbao was nice!!
i meant for a person like me who hated xiaolongbao ever since din tai fung, to say tt i like it, is really qt amazing!
hahas
:)
yays!
and we had jiemeis chit-chat!
presenting:
jeanie: cute!
yiping: pretty!
hilda: sweet!
huey ying: carebear!
li ji: elegant!
hahahahas
almost forgot to blog about my quite exciting wkend!
last fri nite was spent with muffins!!
had a great time at MINDS cafe
been a long time since i stepped foot in there
hahas
missed hanging out with tis fun bunch of ppl
whom i can really let my hair down with!
had a nite of fun and laughter!
ken's recommendation is relly good!
the deal was really cheap
10 bucks for food n drinks plus 4 hrs of gaming rox!
sat morn had a refreshing morning run!!
finally got down to it after procastination
got to prepare myself for the upcoming 5.6km JP Morgan run in less than 2 wks time
dunwan to diu lian in front of all my jiemeis and deloitte peeps
hahas
afternoon went to sweep ah ma's tomb!
planted my adorable windmill in the grass patch at her place!
so pretty as it rotated in the wind!
bought with my first paycheck!
really hope she likes it!
the weather was horrid though, super hot n sunny!
and with all the burning of incense
had a bad headache after that and my whole body & hair smells of the incense
sighzzzz
went to meet KS after that for dinner
had sushi tei
glad we're still friends
enjoyed hanging out tog
though we din get to get koi
sun was spent visiting kelvin's church
met his sis and bro-in-law n his sis' fren
was kinda awkward
felt as if was invading a family gathering
hahas
his church felt like zion church!
we had lunch tog too at everything with fries!
yumsyums
but the portion was so huge, cld not finish my food :(
afterwhich, headed off to tangs to shop ard
ohhh watched the movie sanctum
thot it was not bad
except the ending shld be abit more exciting hahs
and dinner at itachi sushi!
the sushi was great
was surprised i act liked the sashimi
it was rather fresh!
:)
super packed wkend ritee
tink the upcoming wkend will be pretty empty
hahs
but then need a good rest
feeling pretty drained recently
getting old ba
hahas
suddenly i felt that we relied so much on each other
that we understand each other so well
that we're almost family!
love knowing that no matter what happens,
there is always you that i can turn to
:)
yesterday did not slp well
kept wanting to tell someone how i feel inside
too many mixed feelings within
in the end i left it to the lord
i tink no one will unstd me better than him
today left office on time
without telling my AIC!
today was quite free
yays!!
needed a good break
since yest was really very tired out by all that rushing
i will wait and see
maybe we will jus cruise along
if nothing works out
then maybe it's all meant to be
but if something happens
i'll jus thank god for his blessings
this feeling is so strange and foreign
never felt this way before
or maybe i have forgotten how to feel like that
i want to bury this inside my heart
and never let anyone know
yet at times i also feel like telling it out
feeling so conflicted!
maybe it's cox i know it will not work out
it's all my wishful thinking
i suddenly feel that there is something bugging me at the back of my head
but i know there is no happy ending to it
so i just want to flush away the thought
and focus on other stuff
but there's always this "what if"
today worked till 10!
cleared most of the review points of 2 entities within 2 days
faintss
my AIC really emails me every 5 mins
sighz
totally on my toes
super stresssed!
nearly pulled my hair out
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